James Sexton

And it took her away from us because she was just constantly recovering from surgery, recovering from chemo.

Like it was just, death was just ever present.

It was always there.

And so I think that I just, I was just very, I couldn't deny

death.

It was just always there.

And so I wasn't, you know, I wasn't, I wanted to move towards it.

I didn't want to run from it.

Like I was afraid of spiders.

I didn't like spiders.

And by the way, it's really, if you're going to be afraid of something, be afraid of spiders rather than death.

Because everyone you know is going to die and you're going to die.

But spiders you could kind of stay away from if you wanted to.

But I was the opposite, I was weird.

I was like, okay, I'm afraid of spiders.

I'm gonna get a tarantula and I'm gonna put it in a glass tank right next to my bed.

So the first thing that happens every morning when I wake up is I have to look at a giant spider.

And it worked, I'm not as afraid of spiders anymore.

Like if I see a house spider now, it like crawls in my hand and I put it on a plant or whatever.

I wanted to do the same thing with death.