Jessica Lanyadoo

You're being...

unkind to yourself or being paranoid, because I think some of this can kind of fall into paranoia land, right?

Like, oh, I had a bad thought.

Does that mean I'm hurting my child?

Like, is that how it works or is that paranoid?

I think it exists in this like mushy space between the two, right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So this like constantly trying to police how you feel, that can show up in your child's birth chart.

That's like as like a thing like this is what I should do.

I should police myself because I shouldn't feel anything for myself.

Like it's bad for me to have to be in physical pain and then to be mad at being pregnant.

That is somehow bad.

And so what you're doing is you're normalizing the kind of like belief that you hold that you learned from your mom and.

that prioritizing your individuality is somehow a rejection of child or rejection of family or rejection, maybe even of husband.

I don't know if it, I'm not picking up on stuff with your partner.

It really just is focused on you and baby right now.

And so what I think as an astrologer, and I guess a psychic also, is that being in conversation with yourself where you're like, oh,

This is something I'm struggling with.

I don't know how much hating being pregnant or fucking wishing I could just press fast forward until this part's over.