Jesy Nelson

They won it.

And then I felt like when they won it, like Ashley wasn't around as much to teach.

And I kind of just like lost it.

the like passion that I had for it because they weren't there as much because you needed that leader almost you needed that thing to really yeah and I just like they were like my family at the time I was so close with them so when they weren't there there was like different teachers coming in and I just didn't I just didn't have the same love for it as I did and then literally then they won Britain's Got Talent and then the year later I won X Factor

I'm not even joking you.

But now when I watch my audition back, I'm like, fair dues.

Cause it was fucking horrendous.

So I'm like, you had every right to say what you had to say.

But obviously at the time, I just remember it being the year that Simon Cowell wasn't there.

And he was the one that I was just like... Was that disappointing that he wasn't... I was so disappointed.

Yeah, because you're like... So disappointing.

But also I was like, they were telling me that Gary was the Simon.

So I was like, okay.

So when he obviously fucking like absolutely annihilated me, I was like, this is horrendous.

A massive audience.

It's not just the one-on-one in a room.

I just turned 20 on the day that I did my audition.

Also, I just want to say that was the first time.

So you know the video you saw in the documentary where I was singing on stage as a little girl?

That's then the next time I'd ever sung in front of anyone since then.