Joe Hudson

Both, which make you emotionally, more likely to emotionally abandon.

But when I could love that feeling of abandonment, when I could welcome that, then neither of those two actions happened.

And then you were less likely to abandon me and the pattern would start to fall apart.

So all of that started to happen.

And my capacity to love myself, to not believe the shame, to work through my shame, it started to all unravel.

And that's when joy showed up.

And that's, and then after joy showed up, interestingly, that's when the I'm bad thing fell apart.

Then the, like the inherent goodness showed up the, like the recognition.

And it's an interesting thing, right?

Like you have dedicated your life to doing this work in the world.

It's great work.

It's wonderful.

And yet, most people in your position, I can't speak for you, but most people in your position would be focused on the things that they didn't do or what was wrong.

They wouldn't actually have trust that, oh, I'm doing this because I have great intentions for the world and I actually really deeply care.

They won't admit that to themselves.

They won't admit to themselves that thousands of people watch this thing and their lives are changed because of it.

And they're having that impact on the world and letting that break their heart open.

And that journey, which is beyond the journey of joy, is this journey of, oh, I can't be grateful for things that I can't acknowledge are true.

And so can I fully allow, oh...

The people in my business want me to think they're doing a good job.