Jordan

And I think I learned numbness as a technique because I was being treated a certain way.

And the only way I knew how to react was to shut down.

So like fight or flight, I would flight and I would shut down and I would like sweep everything under the rug for years because, again, I didn't really want to tell my friends and family.

They saw it, but I didn't want to get into it.

So I would put on these happy faces.

We would fight every single day.

But then I had to go teach a class or run my business or film the show.

And I had to just be happy Jessie.

But it hurt me in the long run because it made it really hard for me to show emotion.

I became robotic.

And this season really opened me up.

But for some reason with Jordan specifically, I'm still very emotionally numb.

And I think it's a defense mechanism.

I think it's what I did to protect myself.

I learned that in my first marriage as well.

I learned how to be numb and then I carried that over to this one.

So I definitely feel like when it comes to romantic situations, that's what I do.

So I'm still working through that.

Do you compartmentalize?

Yes.