Kail Lowry

The things that I knew I needed to be honest about, like when something crossed my mind and I wanted to say it and I would have that physical reaction, I would start getting chill bumps.

My hair would start standing up and I would start sweating.

I was like, I need to say this.

Because if you hold it in, that's when it kind of starts to eat away at you from the inside out.

And it'll come out and it's kind of like you put a beautiful butterfly in a bottle.

It's going to fly around for a little while, but sooner or later it's going to die because it's been starved.

It hasn't been let out the bottle.

So I'm like, you have to let it out.

Any type of emotions you stifle, even the good ones, if you don't find a healthy way to let them out, they're going to die and they're going to come out as rage.

They're going to come out as anger.

They're going to come out as resentment or something like that.

So that was a big thing for me is to find ways to just release my emotions in a healthy way.

So I wasn't like attacking my partner, attacking my kids and stuff like that, because that's, you know,

a lot of people ask me like what's your biggest regret about therapy yeah before therapy and because i you know i'm 40 now but my oldest son is 17 i've been in therapy for nine years so he got the first eight years of his life he got the uh the untherapized i don't even know the word like the unhealed version yeah the unhealed version of me he got the brunt of that for his first eight nine years of life you know i have a nine-year-old son too

He's kind of grown up with me through my therapy journey.

He's kind of seen the rage and anger and stuff like that progressively through the years until I really started getting serious.

But I have a five-year-old daughter, and she don't know none of that.

She don't know none of that.

You know your dad.

My wife, sometimes she gets angry.