Karah

And most importantly, everything that you feel as a child, it comes out to you in an adult way.

Like, it still follows you.

It's still there.

And a lot of times it sucks, like, when you can't get rid of that guilt feeling or that, oh, shit feeling or the embarrassment feeling because it is still kind of just that.

You know what I mean?

It's still just that a little bit.

And I think that's, I mean, you said it just right.

I wanted so bad, just a little bit of me, like, everything's going to be okay.

It's all going to be okay.

And then it just never was.

Then it just never was.

So I'll go back into where I was with my dad.

He went to prison.

I went to go see him one time once.

one time.

So, and then this is the, this crazy part happens as well.

Gosh.

And then, so we're going back and forth, but he, so after I went to go see him, it was probably about a year or two, he was still locked up.

And I don't know if maybe at this point, my dad's mind just kind of went crazy from being incarcerated for 30 some odd years or heavy drug use.

But he was calling us and just talking about some pretty off the wall shit.