Kelly

I've been doing a lot better, I would say, honestly.

Like,

I've been happy, I guess.

I've just been trying to be more open about it because I realized that I never shared it to anyone at my job.

Now I'm just like trying to just put myself out there again.

It just closes you in this insane box, you know, you have nowhere to go and you just somehow find a way to chisel through it.

Chiseling, yeah.

Still making my way out.

That's... I feel like that just feels like a better explanation because I've always had a hard time describing it, but...

It kind of makes me feel a little at ease again where I'm like, OK, maybe it's still not entirely like me, me, like, you know.

I'm actually just spending days in my apartment only just without my hearing aids and just trying to take in all the sounds.

Like I'll have the windows open because the maintenance guys are working or the gardeners.

And I'm even trying to like vacuum without any type of like a hearing protection and just recognizing that sound too.

It just, yeah.

I mean, we saw a firework show for the first time in years, and it was scary each time one went off, but eventually my body would stop jolting when they would because I was like, this is what we used to do.

Like, it's literally just... It's really weird to...

to know the world again.

I don't know what to say to that.

So Alex, am I the problem?

Yes.