Ken Rideout

And I start making like hundreds of thousands of dollars.

And within a year or two, I get hired by Kenner Fitzgerald to go to London to run European and Asian commodity sales and trading for Kenner.

And now I'm making millions of dollars and I'm flying the Concorde back and forth, New York to London.

I've got a brand new Porsche at that time.

Throughout all this, I'm suffering with this like imposter syndrome and fraud complex.

I'm like, they're going to find out that I'm stupid and I shouldn't be here.

And I like had no...

On the surface, I had confidence, but deep down, I'm like, I don't even know what I'm doing.

I'm just figuring it out on the fly.

Like it was all happening so fast.

I had an ankle surgery, got prescribed some opioids and I was like, see you later.

I'm like, I'm the most confident person in the world.

I'm good.

I don't have any concerns.

And that started like a 10 year, like 24 seven addiction to drugs.

No one ever knew that I was doing drugs.

I mean, they probably thought I was a weirdo, but not on drugs.

My wife is very much like a straight lay square.

Like she had never, she's never done any drugs in her life.

Like ever she drinks, she like not excessively, but she'll have a drink, but she's like completely naive.