Ladi6

So he came off relatively normal, meaning...

In crisis, he doesn't explode, essentially.

And in crisis, he's very calm, collected, and understands how to go from problem into fix mode very calmly.

While somewhere in there, I had to have like a ragey moment.

You know, I couldn't go from one to the other sort of seamlessly.

And he gave me so much.

I think it's the Christian background.

He had so much generosity and patience with time that he just, through role modeling more than anything, he didn't mentor me, didn't sit me down and say, hey, you know, how you're acting is kind of crazy.

You may want to try, you know, box breathing or anything like that.

He just was so calm.

We had a son really young.

who was so good and calm with him and just through me watching him and wanting to sort of, I guess, emulate him slash impress him, be like him, I had to really start to look at where this shit comes from.

Like why do you act like that?

Why are you so emotional?

Is it really that you're just sensitive?

What is these outbursts that's happening with you?

I did.

I got down to why.

I've always been a really avid journaler since I was introduced to it when I was about 10.

I was introduced to it by a girl in class that she gave me for Christmas.