Laila Mickelwait
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585 appearances
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first heard Nov 2024
last heard Apr 2025
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The Jordan B. Peterson Podcast · 503. One Woman’s War on P*rnhub | Laila Mickelwait · 2 Dec 2024
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He was, you know, very focused on human rights issues, and that's how we bonded most when I was young, is to kind of discuss these things. And so he kind of instilled that in me and my sisters from a young age, and I kind of went off... In search of, you know, many different things, I kind of went off, I guess you'd say, went off track in my life for a while, but came back around to this.
Well, you know, I thought that I wanted to pursue kind of very selfish ambitions. I kind of got involved in the Hollywood scene for a while.
I kind of got to a real low point. I thought I wanted to be an entertainment contract attorney, drive a BMW from Malibu to Hollywood every day and, you know, live this glamorous, star-studded life was kind of, this dream I had for a few years. And I got involved in that scene, and I ended up finding it very hollow.
I, you know, was partying, and I mean, I even found myself at the Playboy Mansion, I mean, with Bill Maher and Andy Dick, and Hugh Hefner's birthday party, and different, you know, parties in Hollywood.
I mean, at the time, it was... Honestly, at the time, I thought it was cool. Like, I thought it was... and I didn't think much of it. How old were you? Gosh, I think I was, was it 19, maybe 20, 21? Oh yeah, so pretty young. Yeah.
Yeah.
So I kind of hit a real low point in my life. Why? Kind of a crash and burn.
Well.
Yeah. Well, I kind of came to The end of myself, I was partying and, you know, I was even, you know, doing drugs. I ended up being groped and found myself, you know, on the floor of a room, a dirty carpet that smelled like vomit.
Not really knowing even what happened the night before.
And it was just like I hit a real low point in my life.
Yeah. At the same time, I suffered a devastating romantic heartbreak. I got in a bad car accident. It was kind of like all of these things were happening at once, and I just kind of hit that low breaking point in my life. And at that time, I was searching. I was very depressed.
I mean, it was kind of around the same time in my life. Still pretty young. Yeah, these early 20s, right? Yeah, okay. And you were in L.A.? I grew up in Southern California, so I was about an hour and a half from L.A., so I would drive to L.A. and come back. And I hit, yeah, a rock bottom, right? And it was at that point that I was crying one night. I had drawn a picture of how I felt.
I'll describe it to you. But I was at a point where I had to either take sleeping pills or narcotics to numb the pain. And I just felt very depressed. And I was totally lost and not knowing where or what I was going to do with my life. And I drew a picture that night. It was a flower in a deep pit. And there was rain that was pouring down and there was water that was filling up the pit.
And it was going to threaten to drown the flower. And at that moment, I felt inspired to grab my childhood Bible from the dresser there that was next to my bed. I opened it up and the first thing I read was a description of my picture. Oh, yeah. And it was a psalm.
And I can't remember the exact words of the psalm right now, but it was describing, it was like, do not let the floodwaters overwhelm me or the deep waters of the piss swallow me up. And it was an actual description of the picture that I just drew.
Threatening to drown the flower, yeah.
Yeah, and then I read this verse that was a description.
Yeah, I mean, I grew up in my, you know, again, the example of my father, you know, he's a, I grew up in a Christian home where, you know, this was kind of in my background. I had, you know, definitely gone away from that for a time, but it was kind of, that was my impulse was to do that. And when I read that, I felt this, you know, overwhelming sense of there's someone here, there's, there's,
Something bigger than me that's right here in my darkest moment with me that knows what's happening.
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