Laura Smyth

And then you find the funny in everything and then you start seeing where it goes.

I suppose it was part of me that thought I was going to die.

And because I came at this career late and it's a really funny thing.

I mean, we were talking about it beforehand.

I know everyone just saw us walking, but we did actually talk about it.

You know, you can, in this industry, which I'm new to in so many respects, but like...

It's so easy to look and think, oh, I want this just because someone else has got it.

It's very hard to keep your blinkers on.

So it was so freeing because I used to be a teacher to get on stage and do the open mic.

It felt like this amazing creative outlet, you know, away from parenting, away from teaching.

And then when I quit the day job to do this full time, all of a sudden it became quite antsy.

I thought, oh God, I'm approaching this in the same way I approach everything else.

Oh, they've got mock the week, I get this.

It all became very heavy.

And then something like a diagnosis comes along where you could lose your life.

You go...

There's this really weird thing that happens where you go, oh, I don't want anything other than to be alive.

And if that becomes your baseline, I just want to be alive.

And I really got really zen and positive and I didn't want to like... Because even that becomes shtick when someone...

journals their cancer journey online and you know she shaves her head and he shaves his head and it's like there's even a way to do cancer now can I just have something away from socials so I got really positive I'd go for really early sunrise dog walks and I'd share inspirational quotes and that was until my mate Katia she she