Laura

I remember I was on the phone with my husband's

On the way home from work, I was like just on my way home talking to him and a truck goes by with like an anti-abortion sign on the truck and I just break down into tears.

I have to pull over.

I am completely annihilated.

Like I cannot even get myself together and I'm crying on the phone with him for a long time until I'm able to finally pull myself together.

And I remember we went to like this like town festival and there were abortion protesters outside the festival and I couldn't go in.

We went back to the car, went back home because I immediately started crying.

So it was an extreme trigger for me throughout this whole time.

And I am just, you know, this is my fault.

I did this.

I made this decision.

It is totally my fault.

And something I do want to make clear is that I'm still very much pro-choice at this point.

Like, I made this decision.

This is my fault.

This is something I should not have done.

But I in no way feel like...

that applies to anybody else yeah that is very much my own internal decision anybody else can do whatever they want yeah but for me i i still to this day i feel like it's the wrong decision even though i've made peace with it at this point yeah i kind of i still feel that when there's no you know

grasp it in many different ways.

Right.