Leo Skeppi

It's like I've been able to grade myself on a scale and I would take a little bit of pride and feel a little bit valuable when I saw these traits that increased my likelihood of being loved.

So I loved those things about myself.

I felt good when I saw those things.

And that's the way your brain gets safety is like spotting these things about yourself.

But that scale is just a measure of external validation.

When you bring in the idea of unconditional love, it breaks that scale.

It throws it out the window.

The scale no longer exists.

If you never had to earn love,

If your brain is conditioned to evaluate yourself on how good and how easy you are to love and how much value you can give to other people and how lovable you are, if that's how you know how to get yourself worth and that's how it's all set up, when you take that away and say you've never had to earn it, there's nothing to base your worth around.

And that's what I've been caught in.

And that's where I got to a really, really dark spot where I could not think and figure out anything about myself that had value at all.

I couldn't see it.

Because when you crack open your awareness to unconditional love, the scale goes away.

It disappears.

So there's no way to grade your self-worth anymore.

And I had none last night.

Like, I literally felt...

absolutely worthless and then I started to see wait like Leo I was like frantic I'm like what do you like about yourself like do you like anything about yourself and I wrote down I don't know because I realized the things that I liked about myself were just the best things on the scale

I never stopped to appreciate things about myself just to appreciate them.