Leo Skeppi

And I was just sitting there writing and just like sitting with myself.

Cause I was like, I don't see any value in myself.

I feel completely fucking worthless.

And it's like anything I would use to try and reassure myself of certain character traits about myself or like trying to even have gratitude, like just blessings in my life, like my cars and my house, I couldn't.

It had no impact on how I felt.

Like I felt like completely zero value, worthless.

And this is a thing that I've never heard anyone talk about with trying to love yourself and unconditional love and earning love.

When you're someone who has only known earning love, like you've always had to earn it and work for it and prove yourself for it, you base your self-worth off of the things that you think.

Will get you love.

Is what I've learned.

So I look at it like you have like a scale.

Of okay all these different things about myself.

Are how you can place yourself on that scale.

And then your brain.

For safety.

Will.

Look at these things.

Whenever you feel insecure or doubt or any kind of issue of like someone not liking you, you have this scale that you've built with all these things about yourself, your integrity, your personality, the way you look, the way you treat people.

There's X, Y, Z amount of fucking shit that you can use to increase your perceived self-worth based on how lovable you would be to other people.

So that scale is what I've been operating with my whole life.