Leo Skeppi

It's like all the shit that I've done, it didn't, like invalid chips, invalid, invalid.

You don't even get to try and bet it.

Like it just, the empty glass emoji, the empty glass analogy where there's no bottom to it.

Just it falls out.

Anything, any validation that comes through falls right out.

That's how it feels with the chips.

It's like I was working so hard for all these chips, got all these chips and it just keeps saying error.

They're all invalid.

Like I could never earn a fucking chip or they would take them.

And I'm like, that's how it felt emotionally that I could put it into like a visual.

But when I was writing yesterday and I started getting to this, I was like, right.

And then I was like, wow, I started crying.

I did.

I booed.

It felt like such a release and like an integration because I weirdly became aware that like, there's so many things about myself that I've haven't appreciated and haven't been able to appreciate because I can't exchange them for anything.

I can't make them be valuable to anybody else.

And that's my biggest problem is,

with now discovering things that I like just for myself.

Like for me to appreciate something about myself,

I looked at it as useless.