Leo Skeppi

Like I genuinely don't.

have any kind of what is the even the word i have no hope anytime i do anything i'm just kind of like i hope it goes well but i have no like positive expectation of it i'm just like literally just like an anxiety-ridden wreck of like hope it works every time i post a video

I never know if it's going to do well.

Most of my videos on TikTok for the past four years, every video I've posted has hit at least a million views.

Recently, they did this new update and everything's kind of weird.

But like four years of every video I posted got a million views plus.

And every single time I post, I wonder.

I don't know if it's going to do well.

I don't know if people are going to like it.

I don't know if people are going to like me.

It's like, I think that the internet forgets about me.

And I think that people stop caring about me a lot.

It's like every day I wake up, I have no faith that people will tune into a podcast or people will want to see what I'm doing or like see a video that I'm posting.

I, it's like that.

It just wipes out of my brain every single time.

And you can understand why that's a painful thing to experience, but I,

Like I said, the broken cup of like no bottom.

It's like my life has been so much external validation and I've been so confused and I felt very defective about it.

Like what the fuck?

I should not be feeling like this at this point.