Liliana

She was, like...

350 plus pounds my whole life and because i'm not trying to be mean like but she was the one on top so because of her size i couldn't really see what was going on anyway but i was just like they are both naked and they're doing something i've never seen and they're making a lot of weird noises i was traumatized so i walk in i see it they go get out of here and i run back upstairs and i curl up in my bed and i'm like what the hell was that you know like whatever

And I didn't get any kind of talk about it, nothing.

I was expected to just go about my day like I didn't even see that.

And so it left four-year-old me in a position to try and figure out what I had seen.

And so that turned into me kind of mimicking what I saw.

Like I would take my stuffed animals and kind of sit on them the way that my mom was and being like, now what was this about?

You know, what was she doing like this?

And just trying to figure it out.

But I never received any kind of

yeah talk conversation about that which is odd I think but yeah I bring it up because it kind of sparked this this curiosity in that because I was just like well what are you doing like that's it so paired up with the fact that he's he's grooming me and getting me you know undressed and cuddling with me kissing me and stuff like that at night

And he kind of knew that I was curious about it because when you're that age, you're not subtle about things like that, you know?

And so he just kind of knew that I was curious.

And there was a day like where I wanted something like a toy or to stay up.

Maybe it was just to stay up.

Can I stay up tonight?

And he was like, yeah, but you got to do something for me.

And I was just like, okay, what is it?

And he was like, I want you to, this is going to be so embarrassing.

Like I've talked about my story so much and for so long and to so many people, but I've always used the terms that I know what they are.