Liliana

As she sat me down on the floor of this closet and put tea in my arms, she was still an infant.

So I'm sitting cross-legged in the closet with tea in my arms because her boyfriend was coming home and beating the shit out of him all the time.

And I remember just peeking through the slits of the door.

And it was all dark.

She had all the lights off and stuff like that too.

So that's my very first memory.

Any man she brought home, I called him my dad because I just didn't know.

Like one thing about my mom, she'll sleep with anything with a pulse.

I'm not trying to be mean.

I'm just telling the truth.

But it got to the point where, and it wasn't just me.

It was both of my siblings because I go on to have another sibling later.

But

She would like bring somebody around.

We would call them dad because it's just like that's we like we're used to it.

But yeah, so I would go around telling people, you know, daddy's, you know, dragging my mommy around by her hair and stuff like that.

And just like nobody was ever doing anything.

But yeah, so my mom can pick them.

My next memory is...

being in a pool so when I was a baby or like a toddler I apparently really loved like swimming quote-unquote swimming which is just my mom holding me in the water and stuff and and I loved it so you know being in the bath she'd run me a deep bath take me to the pool and and you know let me swim around there and this this memory that I have I'm about two years old she said because I did tell her I remembered this and she was like you were probably like not even two when that happened but