Lisa Bevere

And it's interesting, though, you're talking about. I think there's two of my most popular podcasts. One is on demons. I'm like, who knew? 500,000 views about the demonic. And then the second one was about how I almost destroyed our marriage. How how my fear and my need to control and and I did not walk well with my husband from a place of bondage to freedom.

And it's interesting, though, you're talking about. I think there's two of my most popular podcasts. One is on demons. I'm like, who knew? 500,000 views about the demonic. And then the second one was about how I almost destroyed our marriage. How how my fear and my need to control and and I did not walk well with my husband from a place of bondage to freedom.

You know, John, John, often as people say, what was what was Lisa's response to, you know, your wrestling with that? Because that was the first four years of our marriage. And I always when people ask me, I say I didn't navigate it well. I did not come to my husband and say, I believe you want to change and I'll support you. I shamed him. And so many women make this mistake.

You know, John, John, often as people say, what was what was Lisa's response to, you know, your wrestling with that? Because that was the first four years of our marriage. And I always when people ask me, I say I didn't navigate it well. I did not come to my husband and say, I believe you want to change and I'll support you. I shamed him. And so many women make this mistake.

You know, John, John, often as people say, what was what was Lisa's response to, you know, your wrestling with that? Because that was the first four years of our marriage. And I always when people ask me, I say I didn't navigate it well. I did not come to my husband and say, I believe you want to change and I'll support you. I shamed him. And so many women make this mistake.

They say, oh, if my husband has a problem with pornography, that's his problem. What was his problem before you got married? Now it's Your problem. It's not that you caused it. It's not that you're less than. But when something comes into a marriage, then the two become one. They need to fight it together. And so I wish I would have. I wish I would have been there for him on that. I wasn't.

They say, oh, if my husband has a problem with pornography, that's his problem. What was his problem before you got married? Now it's Your problem. It's not that you caused it. It's not that you're less than. But when something comes into a marriage, then the two become one. They need to fight it together. And so I wish I would have. I wish I would have been there for him on that. I wasn't.

They say, oh, if my husband has a problem with pornography, that's his problem. What was his problem before you got married? Now it's Your problem. It's not that you caused it. It's not that you're less than. But when something comes into a marriage, then the two become one. They need to fight it together. And so I wish I would have. I wish I would have been there for him on that. I wasn't.

I was dealing with my own issues of shame of thinking, well, because I had been promiscuous, why would I think I deserved anything better? And so the first four years of our marriage, were very broken years. You made it longer than we did. We exploded year four. And I'd had my first baby. And here's the thing. I was working full-time. John was working part-time. I have this beautiful child.

I was dealing with my own issues of shame of thinking, well, because I had been promiscuous, why would I think I deserved anything better? And so the first four years of our marriage, were very broken years. You made it longer than we did. We exploded year four. And I'd had my first baby. And here's the thing. I was working full-time. John was working part-time. I have this beautiful child.

I was dealing with my own issues of shame of thinking, well, because I had been promiscuous, why would I think I deserved anything better? And so the first four years of our marriage, were very broken years. You made it longer than we did. We exploded year four. And I'd had my first baby. And here's the thing. I was working full-time. John was working part-time. I have this beautiful child.

I am breastfeeding him. I'm pumping my breasts at work. I'm a crazy woman. I'm making all the food. My shoulders are attached to my ears. I'm all stressed out. And I'm nagging my husband. I'm thinking, this man doesn't do anything. And one day, I'm in the shower because I'm trying to release the tension in my shoulders. And I literally...

I am breastfeeding him. I'm pumping my breasts at work. I'm a crazy woman. I'm making all the food. My shoulders are attached to my ears. I'm all stressed out. And I'm nagging my husband. I'm thinking, this man doesn't do anything. And one day, I'm in the shower because I'm trying to release the tension in my shoulders. And I literally...

I am breastfeeding him. I'm pumping my breasts at work. I'm a crazy woman. I'm making all the food. My shoulders are attached to my ears. I'm all stressed out. And I'm nagging my husband. I'm thinking, this man doesn't do anything. And one day, I'm in the shower because I'm trying to release the tension in my shoulders. And I literally...

hear this question, you don't think John's a good head of the household, do you? And I thought, no, I know he's not. And I hear you think you can do it better. I was like, I know I am doing it better. And then I heard, but it's a yoke to you, Lisa. And it's a mantle to John. Throw it off.

hear this question, you don't think John's a good head of the household, do you? And I thought, no, I know he's not. And I hear you think you can do it better. I was like, I know I am doing it better. And then I heard, but it's a yoke to you, Lisa. And it's a mantle to John. Throw it off.

hear this question, you don't think John's a good head of the household, do you? And I thought, no, I know he's not. And I hear you think you can do it better. I was like, I know I am doing it better. And then I heard, but it's a yoke to you, Lisa. And it's a mantle to John. Throw it off.

And then all of a sudden, I don't know if you've ever had this happen where you have been so demeaning or hateful and you thought in the moment you were funny or wise. It was like a replay. And I just started crying. And I remember I threw on a robe. I went to John. I said, listen, I am so sorry. I thought submission. meant that if I agreed with you, I did it.

And then all of a sudden, I don't know if you've ever had this happen where you have been so demeaning or hateful and you thought in the moment you were funny or wise. It was like a replay. And I just started crying. And I remember I threw on a robe. I went to John. I said, listen, I am so sorry. I thought submission. meant that if I agreed with you, I did it.

And then all of a sudden, I don't know if you've ever had this happen where you have been so demeaning or hateful and you thought in the moment you were funny or wise. It was like a replay. And I just started crying. And I remember I threw on a robe. I went to John. I said, listen, I am so sorry. I thought submission. meant that if I agreed with you, I did it.