Mary Beth Chapman

I can't believe that's funny.

Right.

And as a mom, I'm in full triage mode.

I'm putting my needs aside.

I'm not even thinking about me.

It's like, I got to pick shrapnel out of five children.

And like,

Who needs the most triage first?

Like, okay, we got to... And you're immediately meeting a bunch of people you never wanted to meet and then they become your closest people because they're helping with the counseling of the littles and the two and three times a week.

And, you know, your whole world shifts because we're trying to survive.

You know, again, then we're trying to... Pretty quickly, we tried to huddle together as a family and say...

hey, we're going to make these decisions together as far as what we do and don't talk about, you know, who we do and don't talk to, you know, but it can only be managed to a point.

You know, it was chaos.

And so you don't think about each other for a while because we're parents.

It's like we're right here.

And then all of a sudden—

We're looking at each other and you grieve differently than I grieve.

And then he'd have a good day and I'd be like, I don't know how you can have a good day.

I'm having a terrible day.

And he, you know, it was just, it's messed up.