Matt McCusker

I had to work out the hour and I was just like, you know, possessed being like, this has to be good.

And I would just go on stage and I could feel crowds being like, because I'd come out like, hey, guys.

And they'd be like, you know, this is that's not what this is about.

You should be having fun and making us have fun.

And I got off and I was, or I was about to go on and maybe I was between shows and I was just like talking to him.

Like, I don't know.

I'm just like fucked up right now about all my stuff.

And he was like, he's like, looked at me and he's like, who cares?

Like, just go have fun.

Stop being, you know, such a simple, such a dumb thing.

But I like at the moment it hit me and I was like, God damn it.

You're right.

And I went on after that and had a blast.

And I was like, yeah, I was doing a disservice to everybody else by being so self-centered and being like,

no, I have to be the best.

This needs to be great.

And it's, it's, it's like literally a scourge.

oh dude it's it's literally the worst you can't perform either as well you know no it's it affects all things i'm up the age now i'm turning 40 in like literally a week and i like like clockwork now like i was you know my whole life i've been so cocksure in terms of erections and man like i'm noticing now i'm like dude if i if i even think about anything else while i'm having sex

Like any, if anything else enters my field of awareness, if I start going like, what's this like?

Is it, it's gone.