Meagan

And so they take the baby away and they go do all their first couple shots and the assessment and the pediatrician comes and assesses them.

So they're kind of out of your sight for a couple of hours.

And I was just waiting in bed, waiting for my epidural to wear off so that I could get up and go to the restroom.

And I felt okay.

And a couple of my coworkers came in because I had worked at that hospital since I was 19.

I was 24 at the time that I had a baby.

But they were coming in, seeing how I was doing.

A lot of his family came.

My family had been there the whole entire time, so the whole night.

So they all kind of went home to get some rest.

But everybody was in and out, in and out.

I just had visitor after visitor after visitor.

And I was smiling, just, I felt like I was being so fake the whole time.

And I was crying the whole entire time, but I wasn't, it was just tears were coming out.

And that was it.

Like they were just flowing out.

Did you feel numb?

Yes, very much.

And I didn't have to make any effort to cry.

You know how you'll make some noise and your chest hurts and you cry.