Nick Pollard

when you're talking about somebody that is, that experiences almost a total inability to give to themselves before they give to everyone else. Um, yeah, it's really hard to find joy. You know, for me, God, I, I would have a story. It was, I was, I was in roofing sales. This is years ago.

when you're talking about somebody that is, that experiences almost a total inability to give to themselves before they give to everyone else. Um, yeah, it's really hard to find joy. You know, for me, God, I, I would have a story. It was, I was, I was in roofing sales. This is years ago.

when you're talking about somebody that is, that experiences almost a total inability to give to themselves before they give to everyone else. Um, yeah, it's really hard to find joy. You know, for me, God, I, I would have a story. It was, I was, I was in roofing sales. This is years ago.

And, um, I've heard a lot of your stuff, by the way, on everybody should have a door knocking job or a club promoter job. I fully agree with that sentiment, um, because I'm not afraid of rejection in any way, shape or form. But, um, that's probably a lie. Anyway, going back to, to the ideas, you know, here I was, I was, I had, I had just gotten out of rehabilitation.

And, um, I've heard a lot of your stuff, by the way, on everybody should have a door knocking job or a club promoter job. I fully agree with that sentiment, um, because I'm not afraid of rejection in any way, shape or form. But, um, that's probably a lie. Anyway, going back to, to the ideas, you know, here I was, I was, I had, I had just gotten out of rehabilitation.

And, um, I've heard a lot of your stuff, by the way, on everybody should have a door knocking job or a club promoter job. I fully agree with that sentiment, um, because I'm not afraid of rejection in any way, shape or form. But, um, that's probably a lie. Anyway, going back to, to the ideas, you know, here I was, I was, I had, I had just gotten out of rehabilitation.

You know, I, I had sobered up and I'd done all the things, you know, my story is a pretty dark one. And, um, I was standing in, in a warehouse store, um, looking at televisions and I was crying like, because I couldn't force myself to to do this thing for myself. And I, and I had the money. This wasn't like something I had to go and, you know, take out a credit card for.

You know, I, I had sobered up and I'd done all the things, you know, my story is a pretty dark one. And, um, I was standing in, in a warehouse store, um, looking at televisions and I was crying like, because I couldn't force myself to to do this thing for myself. And I, and I had the money. This wasn't like something I had to go and, you know, take out a credit card for.

You know, I, I had sobered up and I'd done all the things, you know, my story is a pretty dark one. And, um, I was standing in, in a warehouse store, um, looking at televisions and I was crying like, because I couldn't force myself to to do this thing for myself. And I, and I had the money. This wasn't like something I had to go and, you know, take out a credit card for.

I'm sitting on plenty of cash and my bills are paid and my rent was paid for the year. And I mean, I was good. And there I stood just, you know, sobbing because I couldn't make myself by myself as present because it didn't serve the purpose of making other people happy. And I did this for weeks, weeks, like weeks on end. I would just go stand there and be like, I can't pull the trigger.

I'm sitting on plenty of cash and my bills are paid and my rent was paid for the year. And I mean, I was good. And there I stood just, you know, sobbing because I couldn't make myself by myself as present because it didn't serve the purpose of making other people happy. And I did this for weeks, weeks, like weeks on end. I would just go stand there and be like, I can't pull the trigger.

I'm sitting on plenty of cash and my bills are paid and my rent was paid for the year. And I mean, I was good. And there I stood just, you know, sobbing because I couldn't make myself by myself as present because it didn't serve the purpose of making other people happy. And I did this for weeks, weeks, like weeks on end. I would just go stand there and be like, I can't pull the trigger.

And finally I went to my own therapist and he said to me, you know, you could just stop being a coward and buy the fucking TV. And I was like, okay, I'm going to buy it. And I made him strap it to the car before I swiped my credit card. So I couldn't turn back. And yeah, I think that was really the first time I noticed it in myself, really.

And finally I went to my own therapist and he said to me, you know, you could just stop being a coward and buy the fucking TV. And I was like, okay, I'm going to buy it. And I made him strap it to the car before I swiped my credit card. So I couldn't turn back. And yeah, I think that was really the first time I noticed it in myself, really.

And finally I went to my own therapist and he said to me, you know, you could just stop being a coward and buy the fucking TV. And I was like, okay, I'm going to buy it. And I made him strap it to the car before I swiped my credit card. So I couldn't turn back. And yeah, I think that was really the first time I noticed it in myself, really.

So this is back in 2019 when I really went, wow, I have a real challenge with experiencing joy. I have a bigger problem with experiencing celebration. I have a huge problem with asking for what I need. And then once I do that, I have a bigger problem with receiving it. So all of these components, I started to put it together. I'm like, wow, that sucks.

So this is back in 2019 when I really went, wow, I have a real challenge with experiencing joy. I have a bigger problem with experiencing celebration. I have a huge problem with asking for what I need. And then once I do that, I have a bigger problem with receiving it. So all of these components, I started to put it together. I'm like, wow, that sucks.

So this is back in 2019 when I really went, wow, I have a real challenge with experiencing joy. I have a bigger problem with experiencing celebration. I have a huge problem with asking for what I need. And then once I do that, I have a bigger problem with receiving it. So all of these components, I started to put it together. I'm like, wow, that sucks.

Like, that's a really terrible way to live your life. Mm-hmm.

Like, that's a really terrible way to live your life. Mm-hmm.