Oliver Anthony (Christopher Lunsford)
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995 appearances
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first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
Oliver Anthony (Christopher Lunsford)’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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I just knew I wasn't doing, I wasn't feeling my purpose and I wasn't being the best version of myself I could be.
And so the alternative to like facing yourself in the mirror and accepting that, that I'm not a shitty person.
I've just let myself fall.
You know, it's like, it's so hard to accept when you've had that fall that it's just easier to just.
just to get drunk and, you know, just do the bare minimum you can to keep everything sort of kind of moving along.
But you don't really care if you live or die.
You don't, you don't really care about much, anything like your whole, you know, I don't know.
Life is just so beautiful when you're a child, you're so imaginative and exploratory and you're learning all these things and you just, you just can't wait to be an adult because you're just going to go out and do all these incredible, you know, and then you face the reality of it.
Yeah, and the pressure and the fear of failure.
I think maybe even my own fear of failure is what drove me.
But yeah, you think negatively about yourself for so many days and weeks and months, and you don't even have a real self-awareness of what you're doing or how destructive you've become, but you always have that discernment in you, that conscious, that little voice in your spirit that,
He's letting you know you're messing up, you know?
I was almost like, you know, I was wrestling with myself, you know?
Like nothing that mattered before really matters anymore.
I guess that's probably, to me, the definition of depression is when all the things you love and care about are just meaningless.
And you really can't find meaning or purpose or excitement in anything.
I think, especially with men that commit suicide, it's a prolonged period of that.
It's not like they just wake up one day and they have a bad day and they kill themselves.
It's like...
you self reflect negatively about yourself and your life and you don't do the things that you're supposed to do every day for a long enough period of time.
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