Paul Risse

And so, you know, I'd read like, oh, God, you know, killed all these people.

Like, how can killing be bad?

Or, you know, just like the things that, and then you just look at the deacon and he's checking out the 16-year-old girl and you can see it in him.

You know, like, wait, that guy is the deacon?

Like, how come that's, is that obvious?

He's looking at her, the entire church service and everything.

There's hypocrisy in every church, and there's not a perfect church.

It was easy for me to find that, but my dad disciplined us.

He believed in spanking and correction.

I never outwardly rebelled, but inwardly in my heart, I closed my heart off to God.

At the age of 18, when I left the house, I went to college and I immediately just was an idiot and thought I was cooler than the world and immediately just began to party and do anything that I could to get in trouble and was not smart about it.

at all, started out just kind of drinking and I was super into sports and I loved working out.

So drinking didn't really appeal to me that much because I would always be like, what is it?

I don't get what y'all are getting.

You drink a bunch and you feel like horrible for two days.

And then you don't do anything intelligent.

And then I found weed and I enjoyed weed and then recreationally did mushrooms.

And it was interesting.

more psychological and just like it was a new experience and then at that time i was dating a woman she got pregnant and i have a beautiful daughter named kaylee from that marriage but that marriage ended because neither one of us knew jesus christ and didn't have that as a foundation we got married for the wrong reason and that marriage ended in an enormous amount of pain for myself and my ex-wife and my daughter and i was the reason for it but there was

As it played out, there were multiple reasons for us to get a divorce.