Rachel Eliza Griffiths

kind of bold, dazzling older woman.

And her name is June.

And so she helps me not sweat the small stuff.

And she has a lot of humor and style and is chic.

And she takes care of me.

I don't really remember.

I have to say, I know there was a moment literally where I felt I was looking down at this woman, who was this gorgeous bride, and the agony and anguish in her body.

She was screaming.

People were holding her down so she wouldn't hurt herself.

And then I just left.

And I think that was all that was available to try to prevent myself from witnessing such pain and to see myself surrounded by such love, but also the pain of it.

I will never have closure over that.

And that's okay.

I can accept that now because I've done so much work to comprehend all the different things that were happening on that day.

I read different parts of the memoir as Salman was writing it.

Salman and I had a discussion about the writing in Knife about the wedding day.

And he was very clear that, you know, this was my story to tell as far as what happened on the wedding day.

And I think in the arc of Knife...

Having suddenly a detour to describe a very traumatizing wedding day would have changed the lens for the arc of Knife and what Knife was focusing on.

You know, unfortunately, to have these two events, for me, happen within months of each other...