Rachel Forde

You know, I got to see the kids.

supervised here and there.

My oldest son didn't really want to talk to me.

And that will tell you, that tells me that I wasn't very sober at the time because I couldn't understand why he didn't like, I'm a nan and grand as now, you know, I'm grand, you know.

I could not understand or see the damage that I had done.

I knew, I knew I had fucked up.

But at that time, I was still all in myself.

You know, I was still all in myself because that comes with addiction.

You know, you think of only me, me, me, me, me.

It's the most selfish thing that will ever, ever happen to anybody.

So I agreed to residential treatment.

And on the 18th of May, 2023, I went into Ashley House in Dublin, which is Coolmine's mother and children's facility.

I didn't bring my children because your kids have to be under five.

They need to be not in school because obviously you can't bring them to school and all this kind of stuff.

I went in on the 18th of May and you'll notice the pattern there.

Nana Breda died on the 18th of October.

The drugs were found on the 18th of November and I went to treatment on the 18th of May.

And I was absolutely petrified.

I went in and I was on a methadone detox program.

And it was supposed to take me four weeks to detox from the methadone as per instructions from the doctors from here in Arbor House.