Rickey Smiley
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And when I got in the house, I just turned the game up, turned the volume up to lighten it a little bit.
Right.
Get people distracted a little bit.
Get them watching the game to get their mind off of that because it was terrifying.
It was awful.
It felt bad.
It was dark.
It was cloudy.
It was raining.
And just some football would just bring just a little bit of, just lighten it a little bit.
Yeah, you better sit down and talk about it.
You have to get it out.
You have to cry it out.
I can't tell you how many days I sat on the steps that go down into my kitchen.
I sat on that step and cried for days.
And I was just in the house.
I can look up at the ceilings and see the cries coming.
engraved in the paint.
Because I just remember crying and looking up and just crying out in the house by myself.
This is when those funeral directors say when the flowers have withered, when the cards stopped coming and the phone calls stopped coming.