Rory Scovel

You cannot turn your brain on to retain any information.

So it's always interesting to me to be like...

You're choosing to not pay attention.

It's like, well, I wouldn't choose to fail 10th grade.

I don't want to choose to walk into a test and always panic not knowing what to do.

Anyways, going back, they put me on Adderall and I immediately start just soaring.

My grades are incredible.

But the downside is that, probably a surprise to no one, is that I would go home and do my homework and then I would just sit in my room

Like, in a chair with just my mind, zero stimulation, and just spiral out into deep thought about anything existential.

Yeah.

In a way where...

deep personal thought like that can be healthy, but the Adderall wouldn't release me from it.

I would just be sort of stuck in that, and it would depress me.

And then before college, I took myself off of it.

And I sometimes think that there's just...

predetermined choices.

I don't know why I took myself off of it, but I had an instinct that this was not good for me, and I took myself off of the thing that was making my grades incredible.

Essentially meth.

Yeah.

Meth.