Rox

So if you kind of see injustice and then you get into arguments with people online and that's kind of bringing...

it's kind of like a sick twisted dopamine.

It engages because it enrages.

I don't know if it feels good, but you certainly feel alive by kind of arguing your point, being right, getting into it with some idiot stranger.

I don't, I don't do that anymore.

I'm just like, you hate me.

Awesome.

Move on, baby.

Anyway, that's a yes.

Yeah.

So my entire life, I thought I was just falling in love with people.

I wasn't.

I was just experiencing limerence, which is basically a total obsession with someone that is based in fantasy, not reality.

It takes over your every thought.

It's your first thought in the morning.

You think about it throughout the day.

You change what you wear, how you act, where you go.

It's very kind of stalkerish and weird actually, but I was like that my entire life.

So how do you,

not do that anymore because presumably you're not sitting there thinking no well I went through it and six years ago like when we were first together yeah and so I'd had a pattern of it my entire life and then I'd been celibate for 18 months because I was like I can't keep messing up every relationship I have it's not cute anymore I'm in my mid-30s so put myself on the bench started therapy and then I was like oh cool like I'm fixed and