Ruby Wright

And it was truly terrifying.

And I think that as long as I was damaging you lot, I was kind of really not aware.

But it was when I came to damage myself, that was when I really woke up.

Because I lost you, effectively I lost you between the ages of 13 and 18.

So my biggest loss was losing you for five years.

At puberty, you were 13, you were just about to have your first period, you went off with George to Africa.

You came back and you looked different.

And actually, with maternal intuition, which I obviously didn't have much of, I remember looking at you and thinking, she's changed, she started her period, she's becoming a young woman.

And sure enough, you told me.

And I thought, God, George was there for that.

Her dad was there for that.

Why wasn't I there for that?

And I think during that whole time, really, we didn't really talk about how we felt, did we?

No, I don't think so.