Sarah Edmondson

And she's like, oh, yeah, it's just like a little cut.

And she was like all sketchy about it.

She's in this thing.

Oh, wow.

Exactly.

Yeah, I got recruited in January and in March, I flew to meet my sisters and have my initiation ceremony as well.

they called it.

So that was the, that was the big plan.

Thank you.

I'd love to just leave it at that because you summarized it so nicely.

But it is – I have to tell you, sometimes I feel great – not great.

I feel fine in walking through it.

Other times I just, like, I don't have the capacity because it does –

like bring up stuff and it's sort of re-traumatizing.

So I'm going to kind of like talk about it loosely, but I, if I really, if I really think about it, I break down.

So I have to just sort of like, it's almost like I have to dissociate a little bit to talk about it.

Yeah.

I guess I feel like when I talk about it that way, it just comes across as kind of callous and like,

Like I'm a bit flippant, you know what I mean?

And I don't want, like everything you just said is really true.