Sarah Edmondson

It's, you know, it was designed to trauma bond us.

It was designed to, you know, make this commitment that would not only bond us, but like it was, we were naked.

Like that was filmed that that was more collateral that was used against us.

And so people were, if they were like, once you're there, it's really hard to go back and

This is actually how my book starts is like I'm on – I'm supposed to get on the table or maybe I'm on the table.

I don't remember.

But like I don't want to be there.

I'm trying to figure out how to leave.

I'm gaslighting myself going like, Sarah, you said you were going to do this.

You're going to do it no matter what.

And I'm also like –

I don't want this.

Like, I don't want it, but I have to do it.

And I had the – what people don't understand is that in these situations with coercive control, the collateral is used as a gun to my head.

Like, that was going to be released if I didn't follow –

my commitment, which is to do whatever my master told me.

Now, when I agreed to be her slave, I said to her very specifically, what kind of things are you going to ask me to do that I have to agree to?

Like rob a bank?

That was specifically what I said.

She says, no, these are all going to be things for your growth.