Scott Payne

And the next thing I know, you find out that they have been saved and they are giving their testimony at Celebrate Recovery for recovered addicts.

And I'm like, man, that is awesome.

And it warms my heart.

Here recently.

I won't get into it because I don't know if that person wants me to say anything, but it warms my heart because...

We're just talking.

I mean, look, they're like, man, you're just doing your job.

And I'm like, hey, man, but that friendship, that was real.

You know, when we were out there and we were about to get jumped and you had my back and I had yours, that was legit.

What happened is I had been doing too much for a three-year period of my life, and I'm at my threshold.

I was going way too hard on myself.

I stopped taking care of myself.

I'm a workaholic.

I get it honestly from my parents.

I applied the warrior mentality to every aspect of my life.

Just, you know, that whole rub some dirt on it, get back out in the field, put a Band-Aid on it, suck it up.

And it's great to have that mentality on a lot of things you do as a first responder.

But if you apply it to everything in your life, it could be detrimental.

And it was for me.

I crashed.