Shadoe Stevens
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98 appearances
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1 series
first heard Mar 2025
last heard Mar 2025
Shadoe Stevens’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Not as funny. Not as funny. Yeah. Yeah. It's stark out there. And as you know, after you've been around a long time, you hear really terrifying stories.
Truly, truly. Well, you better keep your sense of humor. Scott, what else have we got? It's like, if we could have done any better, we would have, but we didn't know better at the time. We were doing the best we could. We were just trying to get by. It was like, want to have a little fun. I just want to fit in. I just want to not feel... and self-conscious and afraid.
And I want to be like the cool people. And I, you know, that's what I want. I want to be like the cool people from, you know, from the big cities. I grew up in Jamestown, North Dakota. Were you using when you met your wife? No, no, no. No. Again, backstory. I was married twice before. Were you using when you met your first wife? Yes. Well, we used together. And then she had the good sense to stop.
And she left me because I was doing too many drugs and she didn't want to be in Los Angeles anymore. So I'm saving myself and got away. And on the rebound, I married somebody else. And it seemed like a good idea at the time. And it was, we fought every day for five years. Right. And then I got sober and went, I don't want to fight anymore. In fact, I don't want a relationship anymore.
Clearly, it doesn't work for me. I didn't grow up like this. My parents didn't fight. They didn't scream. You know, I'm not, what have I become? Right. And so I got happy being myself. When I got sober, I went, oh, I've got an active mind. I've got to get busy. So I took up martial arts. I took up yoga. I took up running. I went on a doctor supervised fast and lost 50 pounds.
I changed my life completely in mere months. And I meditated. And I meditated every day. And I went to meetings. Now, nine months sober. My life has changed. I'm happy. I'm up. I'm doing things. And a guy that worked for me went to the bank. And he was standing in line next to this beautiful model, black woman, international model. Started talking. He flirted a lot.
Said, why don't you come over and hear the music we're doing over at our studio? She goes, sure. I go walk into the studio and there he is playing music for her. And she's the most beautiful person I've ever seen in my life. It's like, I tried to be cool. I'm like, so what are you playing here? I'm catching glimpses and glimpses and God damn. And she got uncomfortable and left.
She said later that I saw this aura around you and it was like too intense. I had to get out of there. So I say to her, I say, Ron, who was that? He goes, it's this model. I met her in the bank. I went, does she sing? Yeah, I think so. Get her back. So the very first thing we ever did together, I had sold a show called Shadow Vision, which is very crazy.
kind of like Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy at 100 miles an hour. And I sold it to HBO. And we were working on it at the time. And one of it was a little piece of music called Oh, You Perspire. And it went like this. Oh, you perspire. Yeah, you perspire. She'd go, oh, you perspire. And we did this about 50 times because it was so sexy and so funny.
And to make a long story short, we're still together. And we've never had a fight. I've never raised my voice. I mean, we've disagreed. We've gotten edgy with each other a few times, but nothing. It's blessed. It's a fantasy land marriage. I told you. I told you. And he's proof. She's as good as it gets. And then, of course, my children look like her and are gorgeous. Sunningly beautiful. Yeah.
And now I have three grandchildren who also basically look like her, or variations, and they're gorgeous. And I pinch myself, and I think, you know, I walk my, I have two daughters. I have a son for my first marriage as well, and we have a great relationship, and he's amazing. And I was walking my first daughter down the aisle some years ago, and it was Hollywood.
It's like the most beautiful people on the left and on the right, candlelit. I mean, just like it should have been filmed. And I'm walking her down the aisle and she's like, she looks like, she's like Beyonce, you know, she's just beautiful. And I, and I tell this story all the time. I'm walking along and I kind of tremble a little bit.
Because I see myself in convulsions on the bathroom floor, and I thought, I almost missed this. There have been countless moments like that of, I almost miss this. These grandchildren. I mean, it's on and on and on. And how did I get so lucky? How come I didn't die coming out of a blackout in Topanga Canyon at four in the morning with my car spinning in circles? right up to the edge of a cliff.
It's like a Hollywood movie that really happened. And at the time I go, where have I been? I don't know. What time is it? Where have I been for three hours? I don't know what I've been. So I get out of the car and I'm catching my breath and it's four in the morning and it's dark out and I'm in Topanga Canyon and I don't know how I got there.
And I, my best idea is to take out my gun and shoot it into the air as a, as a symbol of my commitment to never use again. Nope. I got in my car and I drove slowly home. Got some rest. I was heading into town to the studio the next day and I was falling asleep. So what could I do? I had to call the dealer. And he was there. And so I'm back on the treadmill. I'm not going back to that.
I'm not going back.
Well, you know, I don't entirely agree with you. That's why I said it. I really like hearing the stories, and they are miraculous. I've had a series of people speak before this meeting that I'm secretary of, a Cocaine Anonymous meeting, that are jaw-dropping. And it is a life beyond... That whole thing about a life beyond your wildest imagination is absolutely true.
It doesn't mean that you still don't have trouble. You still don't have failures. You still don't have stuff you have to get through. But by being... Among others who are wired like we are, we get a support system, and somebody has been through this already, who's had that operation, who's done something, who's recovered, who, you know, you need a job.
All of a sudden, a job comes up out of nowhere just because you were present. And those stories are the heartbeat of it. It's what happened yesterday. You know, what it was like, what happened, and what it's like now. Basic, the hero's journey. None of us should be alive. Everyone in there has come in broken and terrified and weak and ashamed.
And all they do is take direction and then learn to help others. Do you know what I learned from AA?
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