Sheinelle Jones

I've been grieving for so long that I don't think I have truly grieved her because then it's too much.

I was sitting on a beach in Jamaica and my girlfriend was like, it's okay to cry.

I think it was the first time I had just like really let it go.

And I just said, where are you?

Like, where are you?

Like, are you okay?

Where are you?

And all of a sudden, and we are in the middle of the ocean.

And it was like this rock and we took a picture of it.

And here comes this yellow butterfly.

And we both went...

And we were like, and then it, and she was like, is that you, Uche?

And I said, oh my God, stop it.

And she was like, no, just if it's you or if it's like anything that Chanel needs to know, like just let her know that you're okay.

Can you come back?

And I said, Mia, a butterfly is not coming back.

And sure enough, and we're like, and I was like, oh my God.

And to this day,

Everywhere I go, when I allow myself and I need it, I see one.

And I'm like, how you can see a yellow butterfly in Harlem, I don't know, but I see them.