Siri Hustvedt

He wanted to correct this idea that somehow it was all coming from him, and he had read everything, and I was just the trainee.

And so, yes, he became quite outspoken about it.

And I have to say, it's come back to me.

I mean, even before this book was published, that there was a memorial for Paul in Madrid, and there was a panel.

And someone on the panel mentioned that, and I thought, ah, so it worked.

In other words, Paul said it many times.

Yeah, it's very touching to me.

It makes me...

And when you lost Paul... Bad ones, especially.

No, no.

It was only after he died.

But it came so fast after he died.

Now, I think that I started, I know I started writing the book in May.

So it was maybe, I actually began writing two, two and a half, possibly three weeks after he died.

And but the need to write came very fast.

And I have a half finished novel that I'm returning to now.

But I knew the only thing I could write about was Paul, was us, grief, the illness.

Yes, it was a need, not a choice, as I say.

And he says it in the book.

And it is a compulsion.