Spencer Matthews

Not that crying was negative or weak, just that it wouldn't help you.

And that was the reality of, I would cry and my dad would say, crying won't help you.

There's no point in crying.

It's not going to make you feel any better, which could be wrong, but maybe it will make you feel better.

But I grew up just...

And again, I do want to reiterate that we don't, we didn't think it was weak.

It just wasn't, it's kind of like, it's not going to get you from A to B. If you're on your way to, from A to B and, you know, you're crying along the way, you know, it's not going to help you get there.

Essentially was how, how it was.

what I grew up with.

But, you know, I don't regret or resent anything about my life and childhood and love my parents.

And we have a wonderful relationship.

You know, I think it's that's been slightly misconstrued in the past when I've said that, you know, my father wouldn't let me cry.

I think, you know, he was kind of indifferent to whether or not I was crying.

You know, it just didn't I didn't gain anything from it.

It didn't get any additional attention.

Yeah, I feared the Antarctic swim for nine months.

In a very real way as well.

You know, I didn't share it much with people because I didn't want to worry my family.

I told her that I had some concern, but again, I kind of... You didn't want to worry her too much, right?

I want her and my mum and, you know, I suppose women in my life, but also, you know, the two main women in my life, but also the rest of my family and friends to know that I can handle this.