Spencer Matthews

You know, I need still stints of extended periods of time off it.

So can't wait for January.

I'll do three, four months without a single drop.

You know, then...

I'll probably have a few beers in the summer and then I'll go off again.

I try not to think about it too much.

It's not really in the forefront of my mind ever.

I don't walk past a pub or a bar and go, I'd love a drink, you know, which I think I'm quite lucky, you know, in that regard.

But...

Alcohol is a truly destructive thing for me.

And I haven't forgotten that.

Yes.

You know what I mean?

I think, you know, it's like if you've ever been really hurt by someone, you know, you might choose to move through it, but you don't forget it.

Yes.

Same thing with alcohol for me.

You know, I'm fully aware that if I allow myself...

oh, yeah, like, you know, I'm just not going to drink Monday to Wednesday, but, you know, Thursday to Sunday, I'm going to... Yeah, that's so dangerous.

See you later, yeah.

I'm gonzo, you know, so I just need to be conscious and careful around it, I suppose.