Spencer Matthews

You feel like the first drink of the day is just baked into what's going to happen.

It's like you almost, because you're, in my case, losing control and

you know, a really slippery slope with alcohol, which obviously, you know, is a toxic and addictive substance.

It's odd to feel that way when like, you know, a certain time of day comes around and it's almost like you just... It feels normal to just walk into... Exactly.

To just walk into a pub or a bar, have a quick beer, bam, out.

You know, and it's obviously...

For me, that kind of behavior carried a lot of shame because you kind of know, well, God, I shouldn't really feel the necessity or need to do this.

But, you know, you're kind of doing it anyway.

So, you know, and then I read this book, which essentially is saying that first drink is completely your choice.

Like nobody is holding a gun to your head.

The second and third and fourth drink, once you've had the first, you may be beyond your tipping point.

You may have no control past that point.

But human beings...

essentially have control of their behavior to some degree at least.

And I just found it pretty interesting.

I don't really have a view on it.

I feel like I've been on both sides of it.

Obviously, now I feel like I can walk past a bar and make a decision whether or not I feel like having a drink or not.

And that obviously feels normal to most people, I think.

But I certainly went through a phase where I felt like I had less choice than perhaps I would have been comfortable with.