The Host

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.

Meanwhile, my life was all online. Like, I had all of my classes online. I never stepped foot in my campus, like, ever. And also, I worked, like... 20, 30 hours a week. So when I wasn't doing school and I wasn't doing coursework, I was just grinding at like a retail job, which it was fine. It was okay. Mentally, it was a little bit rough.

There were moments where I really just like, I felt like I was going to be trapped there forever. Like I needed to get out, like the movie. Get out. I needed to get out of there, man. Great movie, by the way, if you haven't seen it. I just had this... this looming feeling that everyone except me was having a party in their life every single day.

There were moments where I really just like, I felt like I was going to be trapped there forever. Like I needed to get out, like the movie. Get out. I needed to get out of there, man. Great movie, by the way, if you haven't seen it. I just had this... this looming feeling that everyone except me was having a party in their life every single day.

There were moments where I really just like, I felt like I was going to be trapped there forever. Like I needed to get out, like the movie. Get out. I needed to get out of there, man. Great movie, by the way, if you haven't seen it. I just had this... this looming feeling that everyone except me was having a party in their life every single day.

That everyone except me was just doing things that they were jotting down in their journals and being like, this is what it's like to have the best college experience. Oh my gosh, I'm having, I'm meeting my best friends. I'm doing all of these things that are making me become a better person that I'm like having so much fun in. Meanwhile, I am like struggling to,

That everyone except me was just doing things that they were jotting down in their journals and being like, this is what it's like to have the best college experience. Oh my gosh, I'm having, I'm meeting my best friends. I'm doing all of these things that are making me become a better person that I'm like having so much fun in. Meanwhile, I am like struggling to,

That everyone except me was just doing things that they were jotting down in their journals and being like, this is what it's like to have the best college experience. Oh my gosh, I'm having, I'm meeting my best friends. I'm doing all of these things that are making me become a better person that I'm like having so much fun in. Meanwhile, I am like struggling to,

to just like find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. And I don't feel alone on this. I think that there is such a pipeline of people who graduate high school. They don't really know what, what to do. So they kind of take up a job or something and then everyone they know goes off to college and it seems like they are enjoying their life and it's like you are working something

to just like find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. And I don't feel alone on this. I think that there is such a pipeline of people who graduate high school. They don't really know what, what to do. So they kind of take up a job or something and then everyone they know goes off to college and it seems like they are enjoying their life and it's like you are working something

to just like find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. And I don't feel alone on this. I think that there is such a pipeline of people who graduate high school. They don't really know what, what to do. So they kind of take up a job or something and then everyone they know goes off to college and it seems like they are enjoying their life and it's like you are working something

and trying to figure your own stuff out, you have less time to do so because you're working and maybe your situation is different. Maybe you actually have people that you have to like, you know, provide for. You have family members. You are a huge part of the working family group. It sucks, man.

and trying to figure your own stuff out, you have less time to do so because you're working and maybe your situation is different. Maybe you actually have people that you have to like, you know, provide for. You have family members. You are a huge part of the working family group. It sucks, man.

and trying to figure your own stuff out, you have less time to do so because you're working and maybe your situation is different. Maybe you actually have people that you have to like, you know, provide for. You have family members. You are a huge part of the working family group. It sucks, man.

It sucks seeing people like have the time of their life and you're kind of just like, why is that not me? Like, why am I not balling out? And man, I can only imagine how many of you out there are maybe listening to this and you are right now living at home. Maybe you just graduated high school, you're about to. You don't know what you want to do with your life, which nobody ever does.

It sucks seeing people like have the time of their life and you're kind of just like, why is that not me? Like, why am I not balling out? And man, I can only imagine how many of you out there are maybe listening to this and you are right now living at home. Maybe you just graduated high school, you're about to. You don't know what you want to do with your life, which nobody ever does.

It sucks seeing people like have the time of their life and you're kind of just like, why is that not me? Like, why am I not balling out? And man, I can only imagine how many of you out there are maybe listening to this and you are right now living at home. Maybe you just graduated high school, you're about to. You don't know what you want to do with your life, which nobody ever does.

Nobody ever does, but... You're working some kind of job and you're just like at night seeing all of your friends living a lifestyle that you wish you could have. Maybe their parents are able to, you know, send them off to a school, not have them work. And it feels unfair. And it is. It is unfair. But that fear of missing out, I don't think that people understand that it's not actually...

Nobody ever does, but... You're working some kind of job and you're just like at night seeing all of your friends living a lifestyle that you wish you could have. Maybe their parents are able to, you know, send them off to a school, not have them work. And it feels unfair. And it is. It is unfair. But that fear of missing out, I don't think that people understand that it's not actually...