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That's why I blew up at the time, because of the music. It was going crazy. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness. All of my cousins was in the streets, but, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me, so my mom had me at 15. So young. Your grandparents proud of you? My grandmother was who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16 and bought me a studio.

That's why I blew up at the time, because of the music. It was going crazy. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness. All of my cousins was in the streets, but, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me, so my mom had me at 15. So young. Your grandparents proud of you? My grandmother was who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16 and bought me a studio.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah. Okay? I got animals as well, though. And what? I got animals, too. I got... I got seven chickens. What do you do with the eggs? They lay me about, I don't sell them, but they lay me about a dozen when it's good weather, like a dozen a week almost. And you eat them?

Yeah. Okay? I got animals as well, though. And what? I got animals, too. I got... I got seven chickens. What do you do with the eggs? They lay me about, I don't sell them, but they lay me about a dozen when it's good weather, like a dozen a week almost. And you eat them?

So she's kind of shifting me away. My mom had me at 15 or 15 or 16. So she is so young. She was so young. And, you know, my grandmother took legal guardianship over me. So I was with her and her and my grandfather raised me.

So she's kind of shifting me away. My mom had me at 15 or 15 or 16. So she is so young. She was so young. And, you know, my grandmother took legal guardianship over me. So I was with her and her and my grandfather raised me.

What do you use the goats for? Again, nothing. I just bought a... Why do you like the goats? They cool. They be chilling with the dogs. They act like family, really. Me chilling with the dogs. Again, I won't talk about the goats. Like, I'm talking about, they not wild at all. They'll follow you around the house. They don't be kicking, sniffing, doing all of that.

What do you use the goats for? Again, nothing. I just bought a... Why do you like the goats? They cool. They be chilling with the dogs. They act like family, really. Me chilling with the dogs. Again, I won't talk about the goats. Like, I'm talking about, they not wild at all. They'll follow you around the house. They don't be kicking, sniffing, doing all of that.

Because I got them so young, and I literally raise them with the dogs.

Because I got them so young, and I literally raise them with the dogs.

No, for real. But I did used to have cats, but... experience with cats sounds crazy you said you had a lot to say right when you got here what what what's on your heart i don't know and drugs i'm not gonna say that i have a problem it's been a bunch of times where you know definitely in the past where i have i wasn't acting like myself when i didn't have this you know specific thing i was

No, for real. But I did used to have cats, but... experience with cats sounds crazy you said you had a lot to say right when you got here what what what's on your heart i don't know and drugs i'm not gonna say that i have a problem it's been a bunch of times where you know definitely in the past where i have i wasn't acting like myself when i didn't have this you know specific thing i was

Crashing out on other people that was around me. What do you mean crashing out on people? Okay. Sorry, bro. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I get it. But crashing out is basically... Out of the ordinary anger when it's not necessary. Okay. That's... Damn, that's kind of a good way to put it. When it's like... Okay, the situation is at a 50, but you want to bring it to 1,050. You know what I'm saying?

Crashing out on other people that was around me. What do you mean crashing out on people? Okay. Sorry, bro. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I get it. But crashing out is basically... Out of the ordinary anger when it's not necessary. Okay. That's... Damn, that's kind of a good way to put it. When it's like... Okay, the situation is at a 50, but you want to bring it to 1,050. You know what I'm saying?

Just because that's... Crash out. It's just like... If you tap me on the shoulder, shoot you with a gun. It wasn't... You know what I'm saying? Like, it's crashing out. But... Like... I was... Fighting family. Even when I was young, you know what I'm saying? Like, for my uncle.

Just because that's... Crash out. It's just like... If you tap me on the shoulder, shoot you with a gun. It wasn't... You know what I'm saying? Like, it's crashing out. But... Like... I was... Fighting family. Even when I was young, you know what I'm saying? Like, for my uncle.

All because he told me to get good grades into school, but I told him that I was going to do this, so... I don't want to get good grades. And I was like, I'm not doing this for you. I'm doing this for my grandmother. And I just want her to see me, even though that she's seen me be successful, but... Like... Just...

All because he told me to get good grades into school, but I told him that I was going to do this, so... I don't want to get good grades. And I was like, I'm not doing this for you. I'm doing this for my grandmother. And I just want her to see me, even though that she's seen me be successful, but... Like... Just...

How she poured into me and even though that I pour into her as well, I just want it to be like, I can't explain it. It's just so much on my heart, man. Sometimes it's just sitting in the dark. You know what I'm saying?

How she poured into me and even though that I pour into her as well, I just want it to be like, I can't explain it. It's just so much on my heart, man. Sometimes it's just sitting in the dark. You know what I'm saying?

Just like a, you know what I'm saying? Like a touchy topic, you know what I'm saying? The drugs or the grandma?

Just like a, you know what I'm saying? Like a touchy topic, you know what I'm saying? The drugs or the grandma?

You know, she was young, so she was around. You know what I'm saying? Like, she... I say for her being the age that she was, she definitely was trying. But wait, hold on a second.

You know, she was young, so she was around. You know what I'm saying? Like, she... I say for her being the age that she was, she definitely was trying. But wait, hold on a second.

I'm not on pills no more. It's just more of a, like, like the cough syrup, you know, um, like the lean. Yeah. That's like, it's in liquid heroin. It's only words to come, um, just becoming sometimes hard to kick the cup.

I'm not on pills no more. It's just more of a, like, like the cough syrup, you know, um, like the lean. Yeah. That's like, it's in liquid heroin. It's only words to come, um, just becoming sometimes hard to kick the cup.

Since, like, heavy since about probably 2022. Do you know why you can't stop? Does anyone ever?

Since, like, heavy since about probably 2022. Do you know why you can't stop? Does anyone ever?

Get people off.

Get people off.

Maybe due to being rebellious. She was with me for a while, but she wanted to be outside, do her thing. She's enjoying her teenage years. Are you close with your mom now?

Maybe due to being rebellious. She was with me for a while, but she wanted to be outside, do her thing. She's enjoying her teenage years. Are you close with your mom now?

okay we don't need this we don't need it yeah i guess you know majority of the time just take it step by step you know we can go off it some other days when i'm in like a More mad, you know what I'm saying? Like angry type of mood. It'd be more. Sometimes I'm like, hey bro, I'm going the whole day without it. Do it. But then sickness.

okay we don't need this we don't need it yeah i guess you know majority of the time just take it step by step you know we can go off it some other days when i'm in like a More mad, you know what I'm saying? Like angry type of mood. It'd be more. Sometimes I'm like, hey bro, I'm going the whole day without it. Do it. But then sickness.

No insurance out here for UnitedHealthcare. Shut up. Really? Yeah.

No insurance out here for UnitedHealthcare. Shut up. Really? Yeah.

Really? Where do you live? Well, I'm moving out here for good. I'm moving on the 15th.

Really? Where do you live? Well, I'm moving out here for good. I'm moving on the 15th.

She believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time, and I still chose the streets. It's becoming hard to kick the cup. How long have you been doing it? Heavy since about 2022. You want to start doing it? Yeah.

She believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time, and I still chose the streets. It's becoming hard to kick the cup. How long have you been doing it? Heavy since about 2022. You want to start doing it? Yeah.

He just turned five with a knife.

He just turned five with a knife.

No way. My child would rather be with me. That's right anyways. That's right. Over his mom. Okay.

No way. My child would rather be with me. That's right anyways. That's right. Over his mom. Okay.

They are. My grandmother was, you know, who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16, actually, and bought me a studio for me to, you know what I'm saying, to do this. Because, you know, she believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time.

They are. My grandmother was, you know, who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16, actually, and bought me a studio for me to, you know what I'm saying, to do this. Because, you know, she believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time.

No.

No.

I have my child majority all the time.

I have my child majority all the time.

In Maryland currently.

In Maryland currently.

For about almost two weeks.

For about almost two weeks.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I know. That's been, like, weighing on me, too. Not only my boy, but my girl. You know, I have a... You have a daughter, too?

I know. That's been, like, weighing on me, too. Not only my boy, but my girl. You know, I have a... You have a daughter, too?

Same.

Same.

She mostly be with my baby mother, mom. But my relationship with her is very close. You know, she just turned three in January. So I put three and a five that far apart.

She mostly be with my baby mother, mom. But my relationship with her is very close. You know, she just turned three in January. So I put three and a five that far apart.

But in this area... No, you're not wrong. You're not wrong.

But in this area... No, you're not wrong. You're not wrong.

The only thing I had like a question is from you being like, you know, successful in what you do, even with the podcast and everything, what would you consider something to invest like money in? And I know that's free game, right? No, no, no.

The only thing I had like a question is from you being like, you know, successful in what you do, even with the podcast and everything, what would you consider something to invest like money in? And I know that's free game, right? No, no, no.

And I still chose the streets, you know, because what I was surrounded by from my friends and things that I was doing, I was kind of always the leader, you know what I'm saying? So, you know, come with stuff like that. But, yeah, my grandparents are very proud of me. Are they still alive? Not my grandfather. He passed away in, he was what, 56? He passed away in 2020.

And I still chose the streets, you know, because what I was surrounded by from my friends and things that I was doing, I was kind of always the leader, you know what I'm saying? So, you know, come with stuff like that. But, yeah, my grandparents are very proud of me. Are they still alive? Not my grandfather. He passed away in, he was what, 56? He passed away in 2020.

I mean, no. Why? Maybe because I don't think that is... What? I mean, out of 30 years... What does that say?

I mean, no. Why? Maybe because I don't think that is... What? I mean, out of 30 years... What does that say?

No, no, no. It doesn't say anything. All right. At the end of the 30 years with 11% annual interest rate compounded yearly, your $1 million will grow to $22,892,297. Uh-huh. You'll be 54.

No, no, no. It doesn't say anything. All right. At the end of the 30 years with 11% annual interest rate compounded yearly, your $1 million will grow to $22,892,297. Uh-huh. You'll be 54.

22.

22.

Leukemia, hair cell leukemia came back for him after being in remission for about like eight to 10 years. He was on life support at first. And it went away, then it came back, hit him like a rock. It only took him about like a month and a half or two to take him out. I'm sorry. Yeah. And how old are you? 24.

Leukemia, hair cell leukemia came back for him after being in remission for about like eight to 10 years. He was on life support at first. And it went away, then it came back, hit him like a rock. It only took him about like a month and a half or two to take him out. I'm sorry. Yeah. And how old are you? 24.

After 40 years at 11% annual interest rate compound yearly, your $1 million will grow to $65,867. So that's basically a million a year. Mom. Money glitch.

After 40 years at 11% annual interest rate compound yearly, your $1 million will grow to $65,867. So that's basically a million a year. Mom. Money glitch.

That's basically a million a year from when you start. Right. Well, the year after you start.

That's basically a million a year from when you start. Right. Well, the year after you start.

Well, you don't have to worry about it with me. You know what I'm saying? I move accordingly. That's so gangster. I move accordingly. How good is that? Man, I've been through it all. When I tell you like, like,

Well, you don't have to worry about it with me. You know what I'm saying? I move accordingly. That's so gangster. I move accordingly. How good is that? Man, I've been through it all. When I tell you like, like,

in Houston, random shootouts, like, it was, like, Grand Theft Auto, you know, it was, uh, me and my friend Swerve, and he, like, he a loose screw, man, and it was crazy, and my cousin Woog, he, uh, That's my blood cousin, but he throw it off. He thrown off too. That's why I be traveling by myself. I don't want to bring him around.

in Houston, random shootouts, like, it was, like, Grand Theft Auto, you know, it was, uh, me and my friend Swerve, and he, like, he a loose screw, man, and it was crazy, and my cousin Woog, he, uh, That's my blood cousin, but he throw it off. He thrown off too. That's why I be traveling by myself. I don't want to bring him around.

Well, not him specifically, but a lot of my friends, you know, even when they do have money, it's like gluttony. Like they can never get enough. I can never get enough neither. But I can, you know, if we, yeah, if we go somewhere and we make a hundred bucks together, we mowing the lawn, make a hundred bucks. I don't want to take your 50 from you if we splitting it down the middle.

Well, not him specifically, but a lot of my friends, you know, even when they do have money, it's like gluttony. Like they can never get enough. I can never get enough neither. But I can, you know, if we, yeah, if we go somewhere and we make a hundred bucks together, we mowing the lawn, make a hundred bucks. I don't want to take your 50 from you if we splitting it down the middle.

It did. Like, that was my dad. You know what I'm saying? Like. That's, I don't want to get emotional and all, but, you know.

It did. Like, that was my dad. You know what I'm saying? Like. That's, I don't want to get emotional and all, but, you know.

You know what I'm saying? But where I'm from, that's how it is. It's just like E to B and like shoot out. Can I tell you something? All right, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Let me put on my glasses. I'm more intellectual with these. Okay, well, if you're going to do it, I'm doing it.

You know what I'm saying? But where I'm from, that's how it is. It's just like E to B and like shoot out. Can I tell you something? All right, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Let me put on my glasses. I'm more intellectual with these. Okay, well, if you're going to do it, I'm doing it.

Right? No, I can't lie. When I look in a mirror, when I put on my glasses, I'm like, damn, this is how I look. I thought it would be better. You know what I'm saying? I thought it would be better, though. But yeah, for the most part, bro, I'm...

Right? No, I can't lie. When I look in a mirror, when I put on my glasses, I'm like, damn, this is how I look. I thought it would be better. You know what I'm saying? I thought it would be better, though. But yeah, for the most part, bro, I'm...

My hair all over the place. No, that's cool. Bro, they put me on here because of my sideburns. I keep telling people that I shave them like this on purpose. I just shave my chin hair. I've just been doing it. One time I grew my beard out when I was in jail. But that's about it. Why do you like sideburns like that? Oh, my gosh. People are going to hear this and be like, what the... Okay.

My hair all over the place. No, that's cool. Bro, they put me on here because of my sideburns. I keep telling people that I shave them like this on purpose. I just shave my chin hair. I've just been doing it. One time I grew my beard out when I was in jail. But that's about it. Why do you like sideburns like that? Oh, my gosh. People are going to hear this and be like, what the... Okay.

Here's a rapper from our city, right? His name, Shag Lizzy. Well, he's not from Maryland, but he's from D.C., you know what I'm saying? Whatever have you. I don't know the whole politic. So... He came out with a song called Disrespect the Tech, I believe. And it's the song with an artist named Fat Trail. That's also from DC, Fat Trail, my dog. So it's a diss.

Here's a rapper from our city, right? His name, Shag Lizzy. Well, he's not from Maryland, but he's from D.C., you know what I'm saying? Whatever have you. I don't know the whole politic. So... He came out with a song called Disrespect the Tech, I believe. And it's the song with an artist named Fat Trail. That's also from DC, Fat Trail, my dog. So it's a diss.

And he had like a ski mask on top of his head. And his beard wasn't fully grown out. But I didn't know that he was actually grown. And I'm thinking he cut it like that. So. When my shit started growing and I'm young, you know, teenager, I'm like, shit, I want to have mines like that too. And I just started shaving my chin hair ever since then and just keeping the sideburns.

And he had like a ski mask on top of his head. And his beard wasn't fully grown out. But I didn't know that he was actually grown. And I'm thinking he cut it like that. So. When my shit started growing and I'm young, you know, teenager, I'm like, shit, I want to have mines like that too. And I just started shaving my chin hair ever since then and just keeping the sideburns.

Yeah, that shit look cool. That shit look cool. And it just became me. It just became my image after that.

Yeah, that shit look cool. That shit look cool. And it just became me. It just became my image after that.

And so you please don't do drugs, kids. I'm being you. Don't don't get into it. Don't try to get into the life. I did it right.

And so you please don't do drugs, kids. I'm being you. Don't don't get into it. Don't try to get into the life. I did it right.

Yeah, and that was my dad. He taught me how to move, you know, from what he was doing, even from back then, you know.

Yeah, and that was my dad. He taught me how to move, you know, from what he was doing, even from back then, you know.

Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Like I said, I'm just want to let know to all of the kids in. Everybody who watching me like I know is repetitive that a lot of artists do say this, even if they don't mean it. But I'm telling you, because of experience of what I've been through and what I've seen, not from, you know, I'm not speaking from nobody else experience in my life of mine. And when I tell you.

Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Like I said, I'm just want to let know to all of the kids in. Everybody who watching me like I know is repetitive that a lot of artists do say this, even if they don't mean it. But I'm telling you, because of experience of what I've been through and what I've seen, not from, you know, I'm not speaking from nobody else experience in my life of mine. And when I tell you.

And that drugs is not the cool thing. I know the double cup is a little aesthetic and all of that, but please, you know what I'm saying? It would take a lot from you that you wouldn't even realize. You know, I've seen friends that come from good homes who pure and drugs, you know, got to their minds so much that now they steal from me.

And that drugs is not the cool thing. I know the double cup is a little aesthetic and all of that, but please, you know what I'm saying? It would take a lot from you that you wouldn't even realize. You know, I've seen friends that come from good homes who pure and drugs, you know, got to their minds so much that now they steal from me.

I'm like, bro, this is not the person that I met 10 months ago. It don't even take that long. You know, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone and also never come back. You know what I'm saying? So some people don't.

I'm like, bro, this is not the person that I met 10 months ago. It don't even take that long. You know, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone and also never come back. You know what I'm saying? So some people don't.

I'm glad that I got this on my chest because I never been a lot of people never seen me so vocal. A lot of people never see me so vocal inside of a interview, let alone shed a tear. Oh, my gosh. But, you know, it's about time that I express my feelings because a lot of people feel like that they know the music but don't know me anymore. And I feel like...

I'm glad that I got this on my chest because I never been a lot of people never seen me so vocal. A lot of people never see me so vocal inside of a interview, let alone shed a tear. Oh, my gosh. But, you know, it's about time that I express my feelings because a lot of people feel like that they know the music but don't know me anymore. And I feel like...

how to be sharp be on point to watch out for certain signs because he was in actively in the street so he was just telling me on what to look out for and never answer the door for any of my friends any of his friends no matter who it is you know make sure that you know coast is clear looking out for these type of people and even told me how to use my first firearm at such a young age you know what i'm saying but it was um

how to be sharp be on point to watch out for certain signs because he was in actively in the street so he was just telling me on what to look out for and never answer the door for any of my friends any of his friends no matter who it is you know make sure that you know coast is clear looking out for these type of people and even told me how to use my first firearm at such a young age you know what i'm saying but it was um

it start off with accountability, the cup, you know, when I sipping and sipping and everything, it have something to do with that. And at first it was just for recreational use. I would always start with somebody like recreational looking good for the aesthetic, but this is not taking a shot at the bar. You know what I'm saying? This is, this can be life term. So, that's all.

it start off with accountability, the cup, you know, when I sipping and sipping and everything, it have something to do with that. And at first it was just for recreational use. I would always start with somebody like recreational looking good for the aesthetic, but this is not taking a shot at the bar. You know what I'm saying? This is, this can be life term. So, that's all.

But other than that, though, I feel like that I'm good. Like, I'm in the right head space to keep going. Yeah, how I plan everything is I put, you know, I put God first and let everything fall into place. And I, one thing about me, I'm strong. And... And I might make dumb decisions, but I'm still not an idiot. Even everything that I do, I'm well aware, conscious of what I'm doing.

But other than that, though, I feel like that I'm good. Like, I'm in the right head space to keep going. Yeah, how I plan everything is I put, you know, I put God first and let everything fall into place. And I, one thing about me, I'm strong. And... And I might make dumb decisions, but I'm still not an idiot. Even everything that I do, I'm well aware, conscious of what I'm doing.

There's been times in the past because that night that I got locked up, I was on his hands. And my first year, My first year, and they offered me a plea of six years. But instead of that, they gave me, I think, like eight months all suspended. No, two years all suspended, but eight months. The rest of the four years that would be served would be parole, probation.

There's been times in the past because that night that I got locked up, I was on his hands. And my first year, My first year, and they offered me a plea of six years. But instead of that, they gave me, I think, like eight months all suspended. No, two years all suspended, but eight months. The rest of the four years that would be served would be parole, probation.

I never had no dirty urine, but I also didn't have a drug charge. I didn't even start. I came into the game later. I say, you know, I didn't even start smoking. I didn't even start smoking. I maybe smoke weed once a year. I never even used to smoke until about the same time that I got on the cup. Maybe around 2022.

I never had no dirty urine, but I also didn't have a drug charge. I didn't even start. I came into the game later. I say, you know, I didn't even start smoking. I didn't even start smoking. I maybe smoke weed once a year. I never even used to smoke until about the same time that I got on the cup. Maybe around 2022.

And it was messing with me so bad, especially last year, because I used to be, what, 350 pounds. No, I was about like 360. Now I'm about like 250 ish. So this is last year. It was 2023 November. You know, I was trying to go cold turkey Thanksgiving. I was in a hospital. They put me on a when I tried to stop, you know, I'm like, I want to be around family. Nobody want to be moving around sluggish.

And it was messing with me so bad, especially last year, because I used to be, what, 350 pounds. No, I was about like 360. Now I'm about like 250 ish. So this is last year. It was 2023 November. You know, I was trying to go cold turkey Thanksgiving. I was in a hospital. They put me on a when I tried to stop, you know, I'm like, I want to be around family. Nobody want to be moving around sluggish.

And it was terrible because even my little brother, and I was influencing that behavior. You know what I'm saying? With my little brother, QP. And I was influencing that behavior. He was sipping too when he was 15. You feel me? Your son is six, right?

And it was terrible because even my little brother, and I was influencing that behavior. You know what I'm saying? With my little brother, QP. And I was influencing that behavior. He was sipping too when he was 15. You feel me? Your son is six, right?

has got such a good heart. I still see the good in the people who even, you know, who even gone, you know, I still believed in my, um, even my grandfather, even, even with him, I trusted that he would get clean, but it led to disappointments for sure.

has got such a good heart. I still see the good in the people who even, you know, who even gone, you know, I still believed in my, um, even my grandfather, even, even with him, I trusted that he would get clean, but it led to disappointments for sure.

You know, I was in a one time I was in the middle of shooting a music video where, um, you know, my cameraman JV productions as in Maryland, this is in my brand new house. Um, I'm shooting a music video. I hear like somebody fell. I go upstairs. It's my grandfather laid out in the bathroom with a needle over his arm. Blood everywhere. We had to take the needle out. You know what I'm saying?

You know, I was in a one time I was in the middle of shooting a music video where, um, you know, my cameraman JV productions as in Maryland, this is in my brand new house. Um, I'm shooting a music video. I hear like somebody fell. I go upstairs. It's my grandfather laid out in the bathroom with a needle over his arm. Blood everywhere. We had to take the needle out. You know what I'm saying?

I took it and ran with it because it is in a more educational use. You know what I'm saying? Like, Hey, let's go hunting in the backyard. Um, let's go to this place 30 minutes away and go hunting, shooting, you know, at our aunt Shirley house. So she lived in, um, she had her own farm in Virginia. Shout out to you and Shirley. Yeah.

I took it and ran with it because it is in a more educational use. You know what I'm saying? Like, Hey, let's go hunting in the backyard. Um, let's go to this place 30 minutes away and go hunting, shooting, you know, at our aunt Shirley house. So she lived in, um, she had her own farm in Virginia. Shout out to you and Shirley. Yeah.

Did he die? Yeah, we had to Narcan him. Okay, but he didn't die? No, he didn't pass away right there. But that was just one incident of many overdoses that we've seen. We had the ambulance give us an Narcan for us to keep in the house. And it was elephant tranquilizer that he had. He was on Trank? Elephant tranquilizer, heroin, you know?

Did he die? Yeah, we had to Narcan him. Okay, but he didn't die? No, he didn't pass away right there. But that was just one incident of many overdoses that we've seen. We had the ambulance give us an Narcan for us to keep in the house. And it was elephant tranquilizer that he had. He was on Trank? Elephant tranquilizer, heroin, you know?

Please don't do drugs, kids. I'm telling you because of experience. What I've been through and what I've seen, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone. Never come back.

Please don't do drugs, kids. I'm telling you because of experience. What I've been through and what I've seen, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone. Never come back.

because wait a wait a second wait a second wait a second oh now you're freaking out because you're like how the hell does she know that i swear to god my he literally was like he's like why y'all throw my shit away man where's my shit at man when he got there he's like why y'all do that why y'all call the ambulance i was good do you know why he did that

because wait a wait a second wait a second wait a second oh now you're freaking out because you're like how the hell does she know that i swear to god my he literally was like he's like why y'all throw my shit away man where's my shit at man when he got there he's like why y'all do that why y'all call the ambulance i was good do you know why he did that

So she had her own farm in Virginia and we used to go up there and shoot all of that. Me and my cousins, you know, where's your dad? My dad in prison. He actually, within the same year, my grandfather passed away in, um, in May of 2020. You know, in March of 2020, right before and right after his birthday. Uh... This was... That's when he went to jail? No, that's my grandfather.

So she had her own farm in Virginia and we used to go up there and shoot all of that. Me and my cousins, you know, where's your dad? My dad in prison. He actually, within the same year, my grandfather passed away in, um, in May of 2020. You know, in March of 2020, right before and right after his birthday. Uh... This was... That's when he went to jail? No, that's my grandfather.

We also had to give, um, here's my stepbrother. But, um, you know, cause they adopted me, uh, you know what I'm saying, legally too.

We also had to give, um, here's my stepbrother. But, um, you know, cause they adopted me, uh, you know what I'm saying, legally too.

Maybe like every other week. My grandmother, I talk to her every day, though.

Maybe like every other week. My grandmother, I talk to her every day, though.

Yeah. My grandmother raised her as well. Right. Okay. Okay.

Yeah. My grandmother raised her as well. Right. Okay. Okay.

Yeah, I'd say, yeah. She just had my daughter. She took them to the, took them to, what is it called? Amusement Park. Yeah, Amusement Park, something like that. And my son, I mostly have him. He's like, he attached to my hip, like, you know, so. But my daughter though, she definitely had a relationship with both of them. Good, good.

Yeah, I'd say, yeah. She just had my daughter. She took them to the, took them to, what is it called? Amusement Park. Yeah, Amusement Park, something like that. And my son, I mostly have him. He's like, he attached to my hip, like, you know, so. But my daughter though, she definitely had a relationship with both of them. Good, good.

Yeah, she never showed me out.

Yeah, she never showed me out.

At all. I mean, but that's the thing, though. I just feel like because she's been through a lot, that she thinks that I'm... that I have something against her, that I feel some type of guiltiness. I'm like, Mom, I never felt the way that you wasn't. You know what I'm saying? Because I understand. I understand of me having even everything that I had going on.

At all. I mean, but that's the thing, though. I just feel like because she's been through a lot, that she thinks that I'm... that I have something against her, that I feel some type of guiltiness. I'm like, Mom, I never felt the way that you wasn't. You know what I'm saying? Because I understand. I understand of me having even everything that I had going on.

It'd be so overwhelming, especially when you're a teenager. You just learning cross multiplication. You know what I'm saying? Do you give her a hug when you see her? Yeah. Yeah, me and my mom, like, not beefing at all. Do you love each other? Do you feel the love? Yeah. I feel like that I can, I feel like that she's free-spirited. I can go to her about anything.

It'd be so overwhelming, especially when you're a teenager. You just learning cross multiplication. You know what I'm saying? Do you give her a hug when you see her? Yeah. Yeah, me and my mom, like, not beefing at all. Do you love each other? Do you feel the love? Yeah. I feel like that I can, I feel like that she's free-spirited. I can go to her about anything.

She used to even do drugs, but it was more like party, recreational, like a little ecstasy. She was never gone off of drugs, though.

She used to even do drugs, but it was more like party, recreational, like a little ecstasy. She was never gone off of drugs, though.

All of my Instagram. Well, my Instagram is Zanservin, X-A-N, Servin, S-E-R-V-I-N. And my YouTube, Zanman, Spotify, Apple Music, Zanman. Yeah.

All of my Instagram. Well, my Instagram is Zanservin, X-A-N, Servin, S-E-R-V-I-N. And my YouTube, Zanman, Spotify, Apple Music, Zanman. Yeah.

Oh my gosh. I can't lie. I have about like... That'd be a hard question to answer. I have about like... Give me one. Okay.

Oh my gosh. I can't lie. I have about like... That'd be a hard question to answer. I have about like... Give me one. Okay.

Okay. I say... Point is called Point. That got about like 7 million views on YouTube. Okay. If I'm speaking more recent, I'll say Shattered Dreams.

Okay. I say... Point is called Point. That got about like 7 million views on YouTube. Okay. If I'm speaking more recent, I'll say Shattered Dreams.

I own those two songs. Are you sure? Yes. I make money off it mostly.

I own those two songs. Are you sure? Yes. I make money off it mostly.

Yeah. I say that. Okay. I say that. It'll bring in more people in tune too, I feel. Yeah. What do you like?

Yeah. I say that. Okay. I say that. It'll bring in more people in tune too, I feel. Yeah. What do you like?

I told that hoe, if you wanna stay with me, you come to the hills, get a dream cast. My dog told me, kid, to cut last week. But ever since then, it had lean value. I got a bad bitch, you know, but last week, I'm still trying to hit it on scene, friend. She wanted a burger, and I got a Chanel. And ever since then, she been mean at me. I told you, baby, I sport like a brat.

I told that hoe, if you wanna stay with me, you come to the hills, get a dream cast. My dog told me, kid, to cut last week. But ever since then, it had lean value. I got a bad bitch, you know, but last week, I'm still trying to hit it on scene, friend. She wanted a burger, and I got a Chanel. And ever since then, she been mean at me. I told you, baby, I sport like a brat.

Came along, went in, cook, coke, and crack. Don't dabble, okay, I'm catching a hat. Celine, Celine, I went in a sack. She don't wanna leave, she see all these raps. It's not what it seem, and baby, what's that? Yeah, what's that?

Came along, went in, cook, coke, and crack. Don't dabble, okay, I'm catching a hat. Celine, Celine, I went in a sack. She don't wanna leave, she see all these raps. It's not what it seem, and baby, what's that? Yeah, what's that?

So my dad, he'd been locked up in and out all of my life. So he in one of the worst prisons in the world. He in Florence, Colorado. So it was about... If you don't know about Florence, you know it's only about like three to four hundred inmates. He told me that you have to have at least three to six months of consecutive good behavior to get a phone call. You know, so it's been...

So my dad, he'd been locked up in and out all of my life. So he in one of the worst prisons in the world. He in Florence, Colorado. So it was about... If you don't know about Florence, you know it's only about like three to four hundred inmates. He told me that you have to have at least three to six months of consecutive good behavior to get a phone call. You know, so it's been...

that i seen with my dad you know i'm saying it really made me take a turn for i say the worst you know i'm saying it made me violent like he made me violent but um With the drug thing, that was always kind of going on.

that i seen with my dad you know i'm saying it really made me take a turn for i say the worst you know i'm saying it made me violent like he made me violent but um With the drug thing, that was always kind of going on.

Nah. Straight up, how to be violent. Like, me and my cousin... I'm sorry, bro. I'm sorry. Like, Like, he is, like, even my uncle, you know what I'm saying? Like, Craig, he rest in peace his soul as well, you know? We used to do shit in, like, the neighborhood, do things in the neighborhood.

Nah. Straight up, how to be violent. Like, me and my cousin... I'm sorry, bro. I'm sorry. Like, Like, he is, like, even my uncle, you know what I'm saying? Like, Craig, he rest in peace his soul as well, you know? We used to do shit in, like, the neighborhood, do things in the neighborhood.

Like, he'm like, man, go rob him with a hammer, like, and walk up behind a random civilian, put it on their neck. He's like, they ain't gonna know the difference because it's cold steel, you know? They don't know if it's a gun or what, you know? And I was doing that. Young age, I'm talking about, like, Maybe 12, 13, you know? So, I mean, I've always been smart, though.

Like, he'm like, man, go rob him with a hammer, like, and walk up behind a random civilian, put it on their neck. He's like, they ain't gonna know the difference because it's cold steel, you know? They don't know if it's a gun or what, you know? And I was doing that. Young age, I'm talking about, like, Maybe 12, 13, you know? So, I mean, I've always been smart, though.

I've always been, like, how can I say this? Like, well-spoken. Okay, so you're smart.

I've always been, like, how can I say this? Like, well-spoken. Okay, so you're smart.

Yeah.

Yeah.

But it wasn't, it was because of my anger. I always had like a short fuse.

But it wasn't, it was because of my anger. I always had like a short fuse.

I mean, that's because, you know, how I was taught, you know, you don't, you don't have to go acting like you're the big bad wolf in every room. You know what I'm saying? When people, when people see if, or if it gets to that, they find out, you know, but. I don't got to act like that I'm that or what I've been through because I don't want that for me. I don't want that for my kids.

I mean, that's because, you know, how I was taught, you know, you don't, you don't have to go acting like you're the big bad wolf in every room. You know what I'm saying? When people, when people see if, or if it gets to that, they find out, you know, but. I don't got to act like that I'm that or what I've been through because I don't want that for me. I don't want that for my kids.

Hmm.

Hmm.

But yeah, I have two. I have two, though. Hide the hammer. No, for real though. It was just like, just about, you know, being stuck in the past. But I never want that for me. And my grandfather didn't want that for me neither. We actually got locked up together because he was on parole probation at the time. And when they broke into the house looking for me, one of my friends told on me.

But yeah, I have two. I have two, though. Hide the hammer. No, for real though. It was just like, just about, you know, being stuck in the past. But I never want that for me. And my grandfather didn't want that for me neither. We actually got locked up together because he was on parole probation at the time. And when they broke into the house looking for me, one of my friends told on me.

I didn't even have an idea at the time. So it had to be from the mouth. And I live over 100 miles away from the location it happened at. So it was the 10th in Merida in so many words, but it being my first... Yeah, but he deserved it though, right? Nah, they didn't. That's not funny.

I didn't even have an idea at the time. So it had to be from the mouth. And I live over 100 miles away from the location it happened at. So it was the 10th in Merida in so many words, but it being my first... Yeah, but he deserved it though, right? Nah, they didn't. That's not funny.

I got off. I got off 2023, uh, July is when I got off parole probation. Only about, like, I sit on dead time for, I think, like, six to eight months. I did all right. You know, it wasn't... Because my grandfather already told me the do's and don'ts. I had to fight, like, a couple times. Probably, like, two. Once was over a noodle packet, which is insane, right? Right.

I got off. I got off 2023, uh, July is when I got off parole probation. Only about, like, I sit on dead time for, I think, like, six to eight months. I did all right. You know, it wasn't... Because my grandfather already told me the do's and don'ts. I had to fight, like, a couple times. Probably, like, two. Once was over a noodle packet, which is insane, right? Right.

You know, because, you know, when everybody get their bags of commentary, they...

You know, because, you know, when everybody get their bags of commentary, they...

hook up you know that's what we used to call it or um like remixing the soups there's so many words when they put the chips the cheese on top sausage just chop it up tuna and just have a big feast you know for everybody who pitched in maybe somebody upstairs got the onions somebody from the kitchen got the barbecue sauce so everybody you know and they portion it out based on what you put in so if you put in the noodles you won't get a lot

hook up you know that's what we used to call it or um like remixing the soups there's so many words when they put the chips the cheese on top sausage just chop it up tuna and just have a big feast you know for everybody who pitched in maybe somebody upstairs got the onions somebody from the kitchen got the barbecue sauce so everybody you know and they portion it out based on what you put in so if you put in the noodles you won't get a lot

Put in the... The meat. You know what I'm saying? From the sausages or whatever. You're gonna get a lot. But, um... I didn't try to link up with nobody. But there's people from the outside that was coming in that was like, I know who this person is. This one that was first coming up. So they was like, this, you know what I'm saying, this Zayn, I be listening to bro. Everybody love bro.

Put in the... The meat. You know what I'm saying? From the sausages or whatever. You're gonna get a lot. But, um... I didn't try to link up with nobody. But there's people from the outside that was coming in that was like, I know who this person is. This one that was first coming up. So they was like, this, you know what I'm saying, this Zayn, I be listening to bro. Everybody love bro.

And this is at the time I was probably doing 10 to 20K. I was local, but there's still no. So, yeah, a lot of people realized me from back then. So that was it.

And this is at the time I was probably doing 10 to 20K. I was local, but there's still no. So, yeah, a lot of people realized me from back then. So that was it.

In a way, yeah. Yeah, and I feel like that's why I blew up at the time, too, because of the music, the time that it was. It was going crazy, and I was... Not to say it, but we live in an industry where they love to see people of our color, you know, or, you know, my skin complexion or anybody else act ignorant. You know what I'm saying? That's what the music is kind of based on.

In a way, yeah. Yeah, and I feel like that's why I blew up at the time, too, because of the music, the time that it was. It was going crazy, and I was... Not to say it, but we live in an industry where they love to see people of our color, you know, or, you know, my skin complexion or anybody else act ignorant. You know what I'm saying? That's what the music is kind of based on.

But I wouldn't say that in the same sense because they love... It's a lot of people who... Love all type of genres, right? You know, but I'm just talking about hip hop. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness, the, you know.

But I wouldn't say that in the same sense because they love... It's a lot of people who... Love all type of genres, right? You know, but I'm just talking about hip hop. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness, the, you know.

Well, I say it is right. I got a lot of connections. All of them are from me is never through a third party is never like, um, like, let's I know somebody who knows somebody that knows Travis Scott. It's never that. It's always I know directly the artist. You know what I'm saying? From relationships, either they DM me first, they show love to a picture or something.

Well, I say it is right. I got a lot of connections. All of them are from me is never through a third party is never like, um, like, let's I know somebody who knows somebody that knows Travis Scott. It's never that. It's always I know directly the artist. You know what I'm saying? From relationships, either they DM me first, they show love to a picture or something.

So basically giving me signs that, hey, bro, I'm watching. I'm like, hey, this is an artist who I want to work with, so I'm going to DM them since they show love to me first. Or when we're meeting in person and somebody recognizes me of who I am, we build a relationship off of that. But as far as like... I'm in a... Mr. Doing a deal right now.

So basically giving me signs that, hey, bro, I'm watching. I'm like, hey, this is an artist who I want to work with, so I'm going to DM them since they show love to me first. Or when we're meeting in person and somebody recognizes me of who I am, we build a relationship off of that. But as far as like... I'm in a... Mr. Doing a deal right now.

I got a project that's about to come out, but financially, I say I'm doing well.

I got a project that's about to come out, but financially, I say I'm doing well.

Okay, so I'm going to be honest. What I do with my money, I like to buy homes. I'm not going to say to flip them. I bought my first house for my first deal in 2019 before I got a piece of jewelry.

Okay, so I'm going to be honest. What I do with my money, I like to buy homes. I'm not going to say to flip them. I bought my first house for my first deal in 2019 before I got a piece of jewelry.

Um, I bought a five bedroom. It was, this was in Maryland. You still have it? No, I don't. I sold it. I sold it in 2023 and I bought a, I bought a farm. How'd you do on the house to make money? Um, I did make some money. I bought it for 380. At the time I was being dumb. I put 100 down just because I wanted my mortgage to be a little bit low. Right. So I was only paying about two grand a month.

Um, I bought a five bedroom. It was, this was in Maryland. You still have it? No, I don't. I sold it. I sold it in 2023 and I bought a, I bought a farm. How'd you do on the house to make money? Um, I did make some money. I bought it for 380. At the time I was being dumb. I put 100 down just because I wanted my mortgage to be a little bit low. Right. So I was only paying about two grand a month.

That's great. Um, do you rent it out? No, I didn't. Were you living in it? No, but I did have my, I did have my grandmother and grandfather with me though. And they were there? Yeah, they were there. Yeah. Cause I'm like, you know, it's a big break for us. You know, this was all I've been waiting for. After like that, I owe it to the people who believed in me to begin with, you know.

That's great. Um, do you rent it out? No, I didn't. Were you living in it? No, but I did have my, I did have my grandmother and grandfather with me though. And they were there? Yeah, they were there. Yeah. Cause I'm like, you know, it's a big break for us. You know, this was all I've been waiting for. After like that, I owe it to the people who believed in me to begin with, you know.

Does your grandma still live there? No. No, no, no, no. Where's your grandma? She's actually in the process of moving in the house now. You got rid of that? Yeah, yeah. So at first that was our, okay, we're going to move as a joint venture. I had all of my family there. Everybody used to come through, have a cookout. Everything was good. Everything still is.

Does your grandma still live there? No. No, no, no, no. Where's your grandma? She's actually in the process of moving in the house now. You got rid of that? Yeah, yeah. So at first that was our, okay, we're going to move as a joint venture. I had all of my family there. Everybody used to come through, have a cookout. Everything was good. Everything still is.

It all started, you know what I'm saying? I'm from Maryland, Prince George's County, Maryland. And I'm from a hood around here. It's called Brycey Road. It's in a city called Landover. So my upbringing, you know, I seen a lot. You know, my grandfather was in the streets. My cousins, all of my cousins was in the streets. But, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me.

It all started, you know what I'm saying? I'm from Maryland, Prince George's County, Maryland. And I'm from a hood around here. It's called Brycey Road. It's in a city called Landover. So my upbringing, you know, I seen a lot. You know, my grandfather was in the streets. My cousins, all of my cousins was in the streets. But, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me.

I just feel like, you know, from the city that I'm from, it's so envy. A lot of people want to, you know, and that's everywhere. Take your spot. Like I said, I do have the jewelry, the ice and all of that, but that's not my main focus. And I feel like that I built that for me as an artist because I don't have to have... It's like the proof is in the pudding, you know, and I like to show...

I just feel like, you know, from the city that I'm from, it's so envy. A lot of people want to, you know, and that's everywhere. Take your spot. Like I said, I do have the jewelry, the ice and all of that, but that's not my main focus. And I feel like that I built that for me as an artist because I don't have to have... It's like the proof is in the pudding, you know, and I like to show...

I like to show what you can do with money. I like to show people what money can do rather than showing you what you can get with money. I like to show you what you can do with money. Yeah. Oh, but I mean, one more thing. Yeah. This is where I was about to say where I'm currently at. I'm in the midst of signing the deal. I sold my house and I bought it for $380. I added some bathrooms.

I like to show what you can do with money. I like to show people what money can do rather than showing you what you can get with money. I like to show you what you can do with money. Yeah. Oh, but I mean, one more thing. Yeah. This is where I was about to say where I'm currently at. I'm in the midst of signing the deal. I sold my house and I bought it for $380. I added some bathrooms.

I didn't take out a home equity loan because I was still making money after my deal. I did. Then I sold it for $550. Bought it for $380, sold it for $550, got some profit. It was still a little bit of mortgage left over, but I left with definitely more than I put down. Good.

I didn't take out a home equity loan because I was still making money after my deal. I did. Then I sold it for $550. Bought it for $380, sold it for $550, got some profit. It was still a little bit of mortgage left over, but I left with definitely more than I put down. Good.

That's why I blew up at the time, because of the music. It was going crazy. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness. All of my cousins was in the streets, but, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me, so my mom had me at 15. So young. Your grandparents proud of you? My grandmother was who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16 and bought me a studio.

Yeah.

Yeah. Okay? I got animals as well, though. And what? I got animals, too. I got... I got seven chickens. What do you do with the eggs? They lay me about, I don't sell them, but they lay me about a dozen when it's good weather, like a dozen a week almost. And you eat them?

So she's kind of shifting me away. My mom had me at 15 or 15 or 16. So she is so young. She was so young. And, you know, my grandmother took legal guardianship over me. So I was with her and her and my grandfather raised me.

What do you use the goats for? Again, nothing. I just bought a... Why do you like the goats? They cool. They be chilling with the dogs. They act like family, really. Me chilling with the dogs. Again, I won't talk about the goats. Like, I'm talking about, they not wild at all. They'll follow you around the house. They don't be kicking, sniffing, doing all of that.

Because I got them so young, and I literally raise them with the dogs.

No, for real. But I did used to have cats, but... experience with cats sounds crazy you said you had a lot to say right when you got here what what what's on your heart i don't know and drugs i'm not gonna say that i have a problem it's been a bunch of times where you know definitely in the past where i have i wasn't acting like myself when i didn't have this you know specific thing i was

Crashing out on other people that was around me. What do you mean crashing out on people? Okay. Sorry, bro. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I get it. But crashing out is basically... Out of the ordinary anger when it's not necessary. Okay. That's... Damn, that's kind of a good way to put it. When it's like... Okay, the situation is at a 50, but you want to bring it to 1,050. You know what I'm saying?

Just because that's... Crash out. It's just like... If you tap me on the shoulder, shoot you with a gun. It wasn't... You know what I'm saying? Like, it's crashing out. But... Like... I was... Fighting family. Even when I was young, you know what I'm saying? Like, for my uncle.

All because he told me to get good grades into school, but I told him that I was going to do this, so... I don't want to get good grades. And I was like, I'm not doing this for you. I'm doing this for my grandmother. And I just want her to see me, even though that she's seen me be successful, but... Like... Just...

How she poured into me and even though that I pour into her as well, I just want it to be like, I can't explain it. It's just so much on my heart, man. Sometimes it's just sitting in the dark. You know what I'm saying?

Just like a, you know what I'm saying? Like a touchy topic, you know what I'm saying? The drugs or the grandma?

You know, she was young, so she was around. You know what I'm saying? Like, she... I say for her being the age that she was, she definitely was trying. But wait, hold on a second.

I'm not on pills no more. It's just more of a, like, like the cough syrup, you know, um, like the lean. Yeah. That's like, it's in liquid heroin. It's only words to come, um, just becoming sometimes hard to kick the cup.

Since, like, heavy since about probably 2022. Do you know why you can't stop? Does anyone ever?

Get people off.

Maybe due to being rebellious. She was with me for a while, but she wanted to be outside, do her thing. She's enjoying her teenage years. Are you close with your mom now?

okay we don't need this we don't need it yeah i guess you know majority of the time just take it step by step you know we can go off it some other days when i'm in like a More mad, you know what I'm saying? Like angry type of mood. It'd be more. Sometimes I'm like, hey bro, I'm going the whole day without it. Do it. But then sickness.

No insurance out here for UnitedHealthcare. Shut up. Really? Yeah.

Really? Where do you live? Well, I'm moving out here for good. I'm moving on the 15th.

She believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time, and I still chose the streets. It's becoming hard to kick the cup. How long have you been doing it? Heavy since about 2022. You want to start doing it? Yeah.

He just turned five with a knife.

No way. My child would rather be with me. That's right anyways. That's right. Over his mom. Okay.

They are. My grandmother was, you know, who raised me. She let me drop out when I was 16, actually, and bought me a studio for me to, you know what I'm saying, to do this. Because, you know, she believed in me since the beginning. My grandfather invested everything that I needed at the time.

No.

I have my child majority all the time.

In Maryland currently.

For about almost two weeks.

Yeah.

I know. That's been, like, weighing on me, too. Not only my boy, but my girl. You know, I have a... You have a daughter, too?

Same.

She mostly be with my baby mother, mom. But my relationship with her is very close. You know, she just turned three in January. So I put three and a five that far apart.

But in this area... No, you're not wrong. You're not wrong.

The only thing I had like a question is from you being like, you know, successful in what you do, even with the podcast and everything, what would you consider something to invest like money in? And I know that's free game, right? No, no, no.

And I still chose the streets, you know, because what I was surrounded by from my friends and things that I was doing, I was kind of always the leader, you know what I'm saying? So, you know, come with stuff like that. But, yeah, my grandparents are very proud of me. Are they still alive? Not my grandfather. He passed away in, he was what, 56? He passed away in 2020.

I mean, no. Why? Maybe because I don't think that is... What? I mean, out of 30 years... What does that say?

No, no, no. It doesn't say anything. All right. At the end of the 30 years with 11% annual interest rate compounded yearly, your $1 million will grow to $22,892,297. Uh-huh. You'll be 54.

22.

Leukemia, hair cell leukemia came back for him after being in remission for about like eight to 10 years. He was on life support at first. And it went away, then it came back, hit him like a rock. It only took him about like a month and a half or two to take him out. I'm sorry. Yeah. And how old are you? 24.

After 40 years at 11% annual interest rate compound yearly, your $1 million will grow to $65,867. So that's basically a million a year. Mom. Money glitch.

That's basically a million a year from when you start. Right. Well, the year after you start.

Well, you don't have to worry about it with me. You know what I'm saying? I move accordingly. That's so gangster. I move accordingly. How good is that? Man, I've been through it all. When I tell you like, like,

in Houston, random shootouts, like, it was, like, Grand Theft Auto, you know, it was, uh, me and my friend Swerve, and he, like, he a loose screw, man, and it was crazy, and my cousin Woog, he, uh, That's my blood cousin, but he throw it off. He thrown off too. That's why I be traveling by myself. I don't want to bring him around.

Well, not him specifically, but a lot of my friends, you know, even when they do have money, it's like gluttony. Like they can never get enough. I can never get enough neither. But I can, you know, if we, yeah, if we go somewhere and we make a hundred bucks together, we mowing the lawn, make a hundred bucks. I don't want to take your 50 from you if we splitting it down the middle.

It did. Like, that was my dad. You know what I'm saying? Like. That's, I don't want to get emotional and all, but, you know.

You know what I'm saying? But where I'm from, that's how it is. It's just like E to B and like shoot out. Can I tell you something? All right, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Let me put on my glasses. I'm more intellectual with these. Okay, well, if you're going to do it, I'm doing it.

Right? No, I can't lie. When I look in a mirror, when I put on my glasses, I'm like, damn, this is how I look. I thought it would be better. You know what I'm saying? I thought it would be better, though. But yeah, for the most part, bro, I'm...

My hair all over the place. No, that's cool. Bro, they put me on here because of my sideburns. I keep telling people that I shave them like this on purpose. I just shave my chin hair. I've just been doing it. One time I grew my beard out when I was in jail. But that's about it. Why do you like sideburns like that? Oh, my gosh. People are going to hear this and be like, what the... Okay.

Here's a rapper from our city, right? His name, Shag Lizzy. Well, he's not from Maryland, but he's from D.C., you know what I'm saying? Whatever have you. I don't know the whole politic. So... He came out with a song called Disrespect the Tech, I believe. And it's the song with an artist named Fat Trail. That's also from DC, Fat Trail, my dog. So it's a diss.

And he had like a ski mask on top of his head. And his beard wasn't fully grown out. But I didn't know that he was actually grown. And I'm thinking he cut it like that. So. When my shit started growing and I'm young, you know, teenager, I'm like, shit, I want to have mines like that too. And I just started shaving my chin hair ever since then and just keeping the sideburns.

Yeah, that shit look cool. That shit look cool. And it just became me. It just became my image after that.

And so you please don't do drugs, kids. I'm being you. Don't don't get into it. Don't try to get into the life. I did it right.

Yeah, and that was my dad. He taught me how to move, you know, from what he was doing, even from back then, you know.

Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Like I said, I'm just want to let know to all of the kids in. Everybody who watching me like I know is repetitive that a lot of artists do say this, even if they don't mean it. But I'm telling you, because of experience of what I've been through and what I've seen, not from, you know, I'm not speaking from nobody else experience in my life of mine. And when I tell you.

And that drugs is not the cool thing. I know the double cup is a little aesthetic and all of that, but please, you know what I'm saying? It would take a lot from you that you wouldn't even realize. You know, I've seen friends that come from good homes who pure and drugs, you know, got to their minds so much that now they steal from me.

I'm like, bro, this is not the person that I met 10 months ago. It don't even take that long. You know, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone and also never come back. You know what I'm saying? So some people don't.

I'm glad that I got this on my chest because I never been a lot of people never seen me so vocal. A lot of people never see me so vocal inside of a interview, let alone shed a tear. Oh, my gosh. But, you know, it's about time that I express my feelings because a lot of people feel like that they know the music but don't know me anymore. And I feel like...

how to be sharp be on point to watch out for certain signs because he was in actively in the street so he was just telling me on what to look out for and never answer the door for any of my friends any of his friends no matter who it is you know make sure that you know coast is clear looking out for these type of people and even told me how to use my first firearm at such a young age you know what i'm saying but it was um

it start off with accountability, the cup, you know, when I sipping and sipping and everything, it have something to do with that. And at first it was just for recreational use. I would always start with somebody like recreational looking good for the aesthetic, but this is not taking a shot at the bar. You know what I'm saying? This is, this can be life term. So, that's all.

But other than that, though, I feel like that I'm good. Like, I'm in the right head space to keep going. Yeah, how I plan everything is I put, you know, I put God first and let everything fall into place. And I, one thing about me, I'm strong. And... And I might make dumb decisions, but I'm still not an idiot. Even everything that I do, I'm well aware, conscious of what I'm doing.

There's been times in the past because that night that I got locked up, I was on his hands. And my first year, My first year, and they offered me a plea of six years. But instead of that, they gave me, I think, like eight months all suspended. No, two years all suspended, but eight months. The rest of the four years that would be served would be parole, probation.

I never had no dirty urine, but I also didn't have a drug charge. I didn't even start. I came into the game later. I say, you know, I didn't even start smoking. I didn't even start smoking. I maybe smoke weed once a year. I never even used to smoke until about the same time that I got on the cup. Maybe around 2022.

And it was messing with me so bad, especially last year, because I used to be, what, 350 pounds. No, I was about like 360. Now I'm about like 250 ish. So this is last year. It was 2023 November. You know, I was trying to go cold turkey Thanksgiving. I was in a hospital. They put me on a when I tried to stop, you know, I'm like, I want to be around family. Nobody want to be moving around sluggish.

And it was terrible because even my little brother, and I was influencing that behavior. You know what I'm saying? With my little brother, QP. And I was influencing that behavior. He was sipping too when he was 15. You feel me? Your son is six, right?

has got such a good heart. I still see the good in the people who even, you know, who even gone, you know, I still believed in my, um, even my grandfather, even, even with him, I trusted that he would get clean, but it led to disappointments for sure.

You know, I was in a one time I was in the middle of shooting a music video where, um, you know, my cameraman JV productions as in Maryland, this is in my brand new house. Um, I'm shooting a music video. I hear like somebody fell. I go upstairs. It's my grandfather laid out in the bathroom with a needle over his arm. Blood everywhere. We had to take the needle out. You know what I'm saying?

I took it and ran with it because it is in a more educational use. You know what I'm saying? Like, Hey, let's go hunting in the backyard. Um, let's go to this place 30 minutes away and go hunting, shooting, you know, at our aunt Shirley house. So she lived in, um, she had her own farm in Virginia. Shout out to you and Shirley. Yeah.

Did he die? Yeah, we had to Narcan him. Okay, but he didn't die? No, he didn't pass away right there. But that was just one incident of many overdoses that we've seen. We had the ambulance give us an Narcan for us to keep in the house. And it was elephant tranquilizer that he had. He was on Trank? Elephant tranquilizer, heroin, you know?

Please don't do drugs, kids. I'm telling you because of experience. What I've been through and what I've seen, it can be less than a year and somebody can be completely gone. Never come back.

because wait a wait a second wait a second wait a second oh now you're freaking out because you're like how the hell does she know that i swear to god my he literally was like he's like why y'all throw my shit away man where's my shit at man when he got there he's like why y'all do that why y'all call the ambulance i was good do you know why he did that

So she had her own farm in Virginia and we used to go up there and shoot all of that. Me and my cousins, you know, where's your dad? My dad in prison. He actually, within the same year, my grandfather passed away in, um, in May of 2020. You know, in March of 2020, right before and right after his birthday. Uh... This was... That's when he went to jail? No, that's my grandfather.

We also had to give, um, here's my stepbrother. But, um, you know, cause they adopted me, uh, you know what I'm saying, legally too.

Maybe like every other week. My grandmother, I talk to her every day, though.

Yeah. My grandmother raised her as well. Right. Okay. Okay.

Yeah, I'd say, yeah. She just had my daughter. She took them to the, took them to, what is it called? Amusement Park. Yeah, Amusement Park, something like that. And my son, I mostly have him. He's like, he attached to my hip, like, you know, so. But my daughter though, she definitely had a relationship with both of them. Good, good.

Yeah, she never showed me out.

At all. I mean, but that's the thing, though. I just feel like because she's been through a lot, that she thinks that I'm... that I have something against her, that I feel some type of guiltiness. I'm like, Mom, I never felt the way that you wasn't. You know what I'm saying? Because I understand. I understand of me having even everything that I had going on.

It'd be so overwhelming, especially when you're a teenager. You just learning cross multiplication. You know what I'm saying? Do you give her a hug when you see her? Yeah. Yeah, me and my mom, like, not beefing at all. Do you love each other? Do you feel the love? Yeah. I feel like that I can, I feel like that she's free-spirited. I can go to her about anything.

She used to even do drugs, but it was more like party, recreational, like a little ecstasy. She was never gone off of drugs, though.

All of my Instagram. Well, my Instagram is Zanservin, X-A-N, Servin, S-E-R-V-I-N. And my YouTube, Zanman, Spotify, Apple Music, Zanman. Yeah.

Oh my gosh. I can't lie. I have about like... That'd be a hard question to answer. I have about like... Give me one. Okay.

Okay. I say... Point is called Point. That got about like 7 million views on YouTube. Okay. If I'm speaking more recent, I'll say Shattered Dreams.

I own those two songs. Are you sure? Yes. I make money off it mostly.

Yeah. I say that. Okay. I say that. It'll bring in more people in tune too, I feel. Yeah. What do you like?

I told that hoe, if you wanna stay with me, you come to the hills, get a dream cast. My dog told me, kid, to cut last week. But ever since then, it had lean value. I got a bad bitch, you know, but last week, I'm still trying to hit it on scene, friend. She wanted a burger, and I got a Chanel. And ever since then, she been mean at me. I told you, baby, I sport like a brat.

Came along, went in, cook, coke, and crack. Don't dabble, okay, I'm catching a hat. Celine, Celine, I went in a sack. She don't wanna leave, she see all these raps. It's not what it seem, and baby, what's that? Yeah, what's that?

So my dad, he'd been locked up in and out all of my life. So he in one of the worst prisons in the world. He in Florence, Colorado. So it was about... If you don't know about Florence, you know it's only about like three to four hundred inmates. He told me that you have to have at least three to six months of consecutive good behavior to get a phone call. You know, so it's been...

that i seen with my dad you know i'm saying it really made me take a turn for i say the worst you know i'm saying it made me violent like he made me violent but um With the drug thing, that was always kind of going on.

Nah. Straight up, how to be violent. Like, me and my cousin... I'm sorry, bro. I'm sorry. Like, Like, he is, like, even my uncle, you know what I'm saying? Like, Craig, he rest in peace his soul as well, you know? We used to do shit in, like, the neighborhood, do things in the neighborhood.

Like, he'm like, man, go rob him with a hammer, like, and walk up behind a random civilian, put it on their neck. He's like, they ain't gonna know the difference because it's cold steel, you know? They don't know if it's a gun or what, you know? And I was doing that. Young age, I'm talking about, like, Maybe 12, 13, you know? So, I mean, I've always been smart, though.

I've always been, like, how can I say this? Like, well-spoken. Okay, so you're smart.

Yeah.

But it wasn't, it was because of my anger. I always had like a short fuse.

I mean, that's because, you know, how I was taught, you know, you don't, you don't have to go acting like you're the big bad wolf in every room. You know what I'm saying? When people, when people see if, or if it gets to that, they find out, you know, but. I don't got to act like that I'm that or what I've been through because I don't want that for me. I don't want that for my kids.

Hmm.

But yeah, I have two. I have two, though. Hide the hammer. No, for real though. It was just like, just about, you know, being stuck in the past. But I never want that for me. And my grandfather didn't want that for me neither. We actually got locked up together because he was on parole probation at the time. And when they broke into the house looking for me, one of my friends told on me.

I didn't even have an idea at the time. So it had to be from the mouth. And I live over 100 miles away from the location it happened at. So it was the 10th in Merida in so many words, but it being my first... Yeah, but he deserved it though, right? Nah, they didn't. That's not funny.

I got off. I got off 2023, uh, July is when I got off parole probation. Only about, like, I sit on dead time for, I think, like, six to eight months. I did all right. You know, it wasn't... Because my grandfather already told me the do's and don'ts. I had to fight, like, a couple times. Probably, like, two. Once was over a noodle packet, which is insane, right? Right.

You know, because, you know, when everybody get their bags of commentary, they...

hook up you know that's what we used to call it or um like remixing the soups there's so many words when they put the chips the cheese on top sausage just chop it up tuna and just have a big feast you know for everybody who pitched in maybe somebody upstairs got the onions somebody from the kitchen got the barbecue sauce so everybody you know and they portion it out based on what you put in so if you put in the noodles you won't get a lot

Put in the... The meat. You know what I'm saying? From the sausages or whatever. You're gonna get a lot. But, um... I didn't try to link up with nobody. But there's people from the outside that was coming in that was like, I know who this person is. This one that was first coming up. So they was like, this, you know what I'm saying, this Zayn, I be listening to bro. Everybody love bro.

And this is at the time I was probably doing 10 to 20K. I was local, but there's still no. So, yeah, a lot of people realized me from back then. So that was it.

In a way, yeah. Yeah, and I feel like that's why I blew up at the time, too, because of the music, the time that it was. It was going crazy, and I was... Not to say it, but we live in an industry where they love to see people of our color, you know, or, you know, my skin complexion or anybody else act ignorant. You know what I'm saying? That's what the music is kind of based on.

But I wouldn't say that in the same sense because they love... It's a lot of people who... Love all type of genres, right? You know, but I'm just talking about hip hop. They like to see the rowdiness, the flashiness, the, you know.

Well, I say it is right. I got a lot of connections. All of them are from me is never through a third party is never like, um, like, let's I know somebody who knows somebody that knows Travis Scott. It's never that. It's always I know directly the artist. You know what I'm saying? From relationships, either they DM me first, they show love to a picture or something.

So basically giving me signs that, hey, bro, I'm watching. I'm like, hey, this is an artist who I want to work with, so I'm going to DM them since they show love to me first. Or when we're meeting in person and somebody recognizes me of who I am, we build a relationship off of that. But as far as like... I'm in a... Mr. Doing a deal right now.

I got a project that's about to come out, but financially, I say I'm doing well.

Okay, so I'm going to be honest. What I do with my money, I like to buy homes. I'm not going to say to flip them. I bought my first house for my first deal in 2019 before I got a piece of jewelry.

Um, I bought a five bedroom. It was, this was in Maryland. You still have it? No, I don't. I sold it. I sold it in 2023 and I bought a, I bought a farm. How'd you do on the house to make money? Um, I did make some money. I bought it for 380. At the time I was being dumb. I put 100 down just because I wanted my mortgage to be a little bit low. Right. So I was only paying about two grand a month.

That's great. Um, do you rent it out? No, I didn't. Were you living in it? No, but I did have my, I did have my grandmother and grandfather with me though. And they were there? Yeah, they were there. Yeah. Cause I'm like, you know, it's a big break for us. You know, this was all I've been waiting for. After like that, I owe it to the people who believed in me to begin with, you know.

Does your grandma still live there? No. No, no, no, no. Where's your grandma? She's actually in the process of moving in the house now. You got rid of that? Yeah, yeah. So at first that was our, okay, we're going to move as a joint venture. I had all of my family there. Everybody used to come through, have a cookout. Everything was good. Everything still is.

It all started, you know what I'm saying? I'm from Maryland, Prince George's County, Maryland. And I'm from a hood around here. It's called Brycey Road. It's in a city called Landover. So my upbringing, you know, I seen a lot. You know, my grandfather was in the streets. My cousins, all of my cousins was in the streets. But, you know, my grandmother didn't want that for me.

I just feel like, you know, from the city that I'm from, it's so envy. A lot of people want to, you know, and that's everywhere. Take your spot. Like I said, I do have the jewelry, the ice and all of that, but that's not my main focus. And I feel like that I built that for me as an artist because I don't have to have... It's like the proof is in the pudding, you know, and I like to show...

I like to show what you can do with money. I like to show people what money can do rather than showing you what you can get with money. I like to show you what you can do with money. Yeah. Oh, but I mean, one more thing. Yeah. This is where I was about to say where I'm currently at. I'm in the midst of signing the deal. I sold my house and I bought it for $380. I added some bathrooms.

I didn't take out a home equity loan because I was still making money after my deal. I did. Then I sold it for $550. Bought it for $380, sold it for $550, got some profit. It was still a little bit of mortgage left over, but I left with definitely more than I put down. Good.