Zerky

You know, my diet has been pretty great compared to what I was eating before.

Man, you know, I started cooking again.

I started really focusing on on going to the gym.

I've gone to the gym for the fifth time.

You know, it's huge for somebody that didn't go to the gym for like four months.

I'll take five times in the first week that I'm back, you know, well, two weeks.

Those wins are the ones that stay silent.

Those wins are the ones that you don't want to mention.

And then you're curious why you feel like you're pathetic.

It's like you don't even focus on things that are good.

You don't allow yourself to because you're too busy ruminating on the things that are bad or you're too busy like stressing about things that are out of your control.

You got to make a decision.

I think I've been pretty

Pretty hard on myself with that.

But that's kind of the state that I'm in.

And sometimes I feel like I let people down because I'm not perfect and I want to be.

But you know what?

In this moment in time, dude, I've been...

I've been going through it mentally.

I really did not expect this to be the case, but I really hit a wall this past week.