Abby Wambach

Like I didn't know how to adjust myself.

It felt like a defeat.

Like I have to admit that I can't handle it.

So there is an opportunity, there is a challenge, there is a project that needs to be done, there is a goal that you or someone on your team or someone in your family has, and therefore, you try to go get that thing.

Yeah, okay.

It felt like if, as long as that is what the goal is,

and you are readjusting yourself, what you're readjusting yourself to is a lesser goal or just resigning yourself that you are not a person who can any longer achieve the goals.

Got it.

So that feels like defeat and failure.

Yeah.

It just feels like, well, I guess I'm just a fucking consolation prize person now.

Like it just, it,

if that's the paradigm.

And it certainly was, and I couldn't see a way out of that paradigm.

And then I was

reading this Buddhist master called, um, who G U Kenneth.

And she was talking about her goals for her students and like the way she really pushes them and works with them.

And she said that her goal for her students, her ultimate goal was not to lighten their burden, but to make their burden so heavy.

that they put it down.

For me, it felt like, oh, it's not that the burden is so heavy and I need to keep holding it up.