Alix Earle

Oh my God.

I feel... I feel bad for her, but I feel like I wish I had someone to kind of lean on in that moment. I feel like I was leaning on myself a lot of the time because I didn't want to stress anyone else out. And I was trying to look out for everyone else maybe but myself in the time. So I was just like, okay, we're just going to bottle this up and not talk about it. But I...

I feel... I feel bad for her, but I feel like I wish I had someone to kind of lean on in that moment. I feel like I was leaning on myself a lot of the time because I didn't want to stress anyone else out. And I was trying to look out for everyone else maybe but myself in the time. So I was just like, okay, we're just going to bottle this up and not talk about it. But I...

I feel... I feel bad for her, but I feel like I wish I had someone to kind of lean on in that moment. I feel like I was leaning on myself a lot of the time because I didn't want to stress anyone else out. And I was trying to look out for everyone else maybe but myself in the time. So I was just like, okay, we're just going to bottle this up and not talk about it. But I...

I wish that I could like go back and have her talk to someone about what was happening in that moment, because I just was like, OK, this is like life. This is normal. Like this is what's happening. Like whatever. We're not going to my house for the pregame.

I wish that I could like go back and have her talk to someone about what was happening in that moment, because I just was like, OK, this is like life. This is normal. Like this is what's happening. Like whatever. We're not going to my house for the pregame.

I wish that I could like go back and have her talk to someone about what was happening in that moment, because I just was like, OK, this is like life. This is normal. Like this is what's happening. Like whatever. We're not going to my house for the pregame.

I think it definitely made me have a lot of hatred towards the situation and it was it's just weird because I obviously felt a lot of emotion and I was super upset and I couldn't let that out kind of like there was nowhere for me to kind of go or talk to or like, I don't know, like I didn't really ever let that out. So I just would deal with these emotions within myself.

I think it definitely made me have a lot of hatred towards the situation and it was it's just weird because I obviously felt a lot of emotion and I was super upset and I couldn't let that out kind of like there was nowhere for me to kind of go or talk to or like, I don't know, like I didn't really ever let that out. So I just would deal with these emotions within myself.

I think it definitely made me have a lot of hatred towards the situation and it was it's just weird because I obviously felt a lot of emotion and I was super upset and I couldn't let that out kind of like there was nowhere for me to kind of go or talk to or like, I don't know, like I didn't really ever let that out. So I just would deal with these emotions within myself.

My high school teacher, because this was such a public affair, especially for anyone living locally in my town, you kind of knew who she was and knew the situation that had happened. My teacher in high school was talking about this governor's affair and said exactly what had happened, who it had happened with, and looked me in the eyes while this was going on in class.

My high school teacher, because this was such a public affair, especially for anyone living locally in my town, you kind of knew who she was and knew the situation that had happened. My teacher in high school was talking about this governor's affair and said exactly what had happened, who it had happened with, and looked me in the eyes while this was going on in class.

My high school teacher, because this was such a public affair, especially for anyone living locally in my town, you kind of knew who she was and knew the situation that had happened. My teacher in high school was talking about this governor's affair and said exactly what had happened, who it had happened with, and looked me in the eyes while this was going on in class.

And I remember my classmates looking at me and laughing because this was about my family and this is something he was literally teaching in history class because... I forget what the lesson was there, but I left school bawling my eyes out. I was so embarrassed. But this is so nice to be able to talk about this publicly because I really never have.

And I remember my classmates looking at me and laughing because this was about my family and this is something he was literally teaching in history class because... I forget what the lesson was there, but I left school bawling my eyes out. I was so embarrassed. But this is so nice to be able to talk about this publicly because I really never have.

And I remember my classmates looking at me and laughing because this was about my family and this is something he was literally teaching in history class because... I forget what the lesson was there, but I left school bawling my eyes out. I was so embarrassed. But this is so nice to be able to talk about this publicly because I really never have.

I mean, it's embarrassing, but I... I'm stubborn and I would never let people know that. So I would kind of put up that wall and I would kind of go the way of being very defensive. I'm like, OK, like, yeah. So like I looked like a hardo, but obviously that's not the way that I felt on the inside. And I even think now like that sometimes I can be a little bit like

I mean, it's embarrassing, but I... I'm stubborn and I would never let people know that. So I would kind of put up that wall and I would kind of go the way of being very defensive. I'm like, OK, like, yeah. So like I looked like a hardo, but obviously that's not the way that I felt on the inside. And I even think now like that sometimes I can be a little bit like

I mean, it's embarrassing, but I... I'm stubborn and I would never let people know that. So I would kind of put up that wall and I would kind of go the way of being very defensive. I'm like, OK, like, yeah. So like I looked like a hardo, but obviously that's not the way that I felt on the inside. And I even think now like that sometimes I can be a little bit like

brutal with things or brutally honest because I would just have this like wall up where I was just like these emotions are not gonna get to me um wow this is like really crazy right now I feel like I'm in a therapy session I'm like realizing things I didn't even realize before is there anything that you have recognized recently in your 20s that you're like fuck I've got to work on this because of the shit that you dealt with as a kid yes uh this has actually been a realization for me like the past