Anna Sale

Like I was so tunnel vision that I thought, oh, oh wait, so it never really goes, wait, it never goes away?

Right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I remember my surgeon saying something like, well, even if... He said something like...

Because I said, I'm uncomfortable even with my partner with my shirt off and I definitely don't want to go to the pool and blah, blah, blah.

And he said, well, even if you're still uncomfortable, you know, with like the results of a tummy tuck, at least like your silhouette, you know, in clothing.

And I'm thinking like, well, yeah, but with my shirt off too.

And I now realize that what he meant was you might not like –

The scar, if your pants go below that, and you also might not like the fact that it's not the belly button you were born with.

where you might make different decisions when it comes to these the interventions the surgical interventions like how do you think about that choice the truth is is that had i known all of the different things like not just the physical medical but the emotional the mental i probably wouldn't have started down the path and i think even though i'm satisfied and glad in a way it

Part of it's almost not worth it.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah, we're gay men in L.A., and there isn't a day that goes by where we don't kind of get down on ourselves about it.

And it's sad.

It is, you know, it is sad.

And I think that our job, especially in sobriety, is to take that inventory, you know, and really look at maybe I have to go do something for somebody else.

Maybe I need to volunteer.

Like, how do I get out of myself, right?

Yeah.