Ariana Madix

This is uncharted territory.

And I'm thinking this is what it is.

You know, when you're with someone for nine years, when you're with someone for.

People say that who have been together for 50 years who have never cheated and who have like they're like the greatest love story of all time.

And you think like, OK, yeah, they said that we had some hard times.

Like sometimes you have a year that's hard.

Right.

And I, you know, especially this past year, I went through a lot and I felt like.

okay and he was going i felt like we were both on our own going through these things and so i thought like we'll get through this together because i mean i'm committed to this man and but you know he didn't yeah he had a full other relationship going on right

Yeah, but no, because I had my best friend.

So he would be so jealous of me hanging out with my best friend, Logan.

Right.

And he would be like, I feel like a third wheel when I go out with you guys.

And I'm like, well, because you you go outside and you are on the phone or you're doing, you know, you.

Yeah.

And so it's like, I don't want that for you.

But so I feel that I feel that absence of him not coming home.

and not wanting to do the same things that we wanted to do, I filled that absence with the most incredible people I know, which are my friends.

To me, it's just so not true.

I mean, to some degree, maybe, yeah.