Cassie Ventura
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78 appearances
5 recordings
5 series
first heard Jan 2025
last heard Jun 2025
Cassie Ventura’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Basically, entails the hiring of escorts. and setting up this experience that I could perform for Sean.
The performance involved... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It just involved watching Sean being able to watch me with the other person and actually direct us on what we were doing sexually.
Eventually, it became a job for me, pretty much, to where I knew if that is something that he wanted to do, I had the context to set it up and get a hotel room and all of that. But in the beginning, Sean set it up. He was in charge.
That's a great question. I wanted to make him happy. I was in a really significantly mature relationship that I don't think I was prepared for. Now when I look back at it, but yeah, I loved him. I didn't want him to think that I thought anything bad of him for it. I just wanted to make him happy.
I just felt like it was all I was good for him. I just felt pretty horrible about myself. I felt disgusting. I was humiliated. I didn't have those words to like put together at the time, like how horrible I really felt. And I didn't. I couldn't talk to anybody about it, so.
Marijuana, ketamine, GHB... sometimes mushrooms, just whatever the drug of choice at that point.
I just felt so tired and achy and really dehydrated. And because you're up for so long, not really eating properly, Too much. I just, I just tried to drink as much water as I could, but staying up that long and taking that many drugs for that long, it's kind of, it is what it is.
Oh, emotionally? After freak-offs were just like empty. Especially if we didn't continue our schedules like Sean and I together. If I didn't stay with him or whatever, it just felt like, okay, I did my job and now I'm going about the rest of my life. Yeah, they're really empty. I definitely just felt gross. Same feelings over and over.
When I wasn't working on my music, I was recovering from partying. That took a big chunk out of my life. The freak-offs became a job where there was no space to do anything else but to recover and just try to be normal again.
Staying up for days on end, taking drugs and other different substances, drinking, having sex with a stranger over days.
Yeah.
It would depend on how long they were. They ranged anywhere from 36, 48 to 72 hours. I feel like the longest one ever was four days, maybe even more, like, odded off with breaks. So it was a significant part of the week.
Recovery from the drugs, dehydration, just staying awake all the time.
After a while, that wears down on you. My self-worth took a hit for the entirety of the relationship. Like just trying to establish who I was. and who I wanted to be and who I was allowed to be.
That he was going to release them. It embarrassed me. Yeah, put my career in jeopardy.
I just feared for my career. I feared for my family. Just embarrassing, all of it. It's horrible and disgusting. No one should ever do that to anyone.
That it could ruin everything that I worked for, just make me look like a slut. I would be shamed. And I wasn't supposed to be on those videos. I didn't want to be in them.
It was just confusing. By that point, I was pretty messed up. I remember there being a time where I got just way too drunk to do anything and we had to leave. It's just uncomfortable when it's not something you're into. I'm not into seeing the person I'm in love with be with somebody else that's not my thing.
He knew. He knew how I behaved.
I have a premiere Monday for the biggest thing I've ever done in my life. I have a black eye and a fat lip. It was time for me to go. You are sick for thinking that it's okay to do what you've done. Please stay away from me.
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