Cassie Ventura

When I wasn't working on my music, I was recovering from partying. That took a big chunk out of my life. The freak-offs became a job where there was no space to do anything else but to recover and just try to be normal again.

When I wasn't working on my music, I was recovering from partying. That took a big chunk out of my life. The freak-offs became a job where there was no space to do anything else but to recover and just try to be normal again.

Staying up for days on end, taking drugs and other different substances, drinking, having sex with a stranger over days.

Staying up for days on end, taking drugs and other different substances, drinking, having sex with a stranger over days.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It would depend on how long they were. They ranged anywhere from 36, 48 to 72 hours. I feel like the longest one ever was four days, maybe even more, like, odded off with breaks. So it was a significant part of the week.

It would depend on how long they were. They ranged anywhere from 36, 48 to 72 hours. I feel like the longest one ever was four days, maybe even more, like, odded off with breaks. So it was a significant part of the week.

Recovery from the drugs, dehydration, just staying awake all the time.

Recovery from the drugs, dehydration, just staying awake all the time.

After a while, that wears down on you. My self-worth took a hit for the entirety of the relationship. Like just trying to establish who I was. and who I wanted to be and who I was allowed to be.

After a while, that wears down on you. My self-worth took a hit for the entirety of the relationship. Like just trying to establish who I was. and who I wanted to be and who I was allowed to be.

That he was going to release them. It embarrassed me. Yeah, put my career in jeopardy.

That he was going to release them. It embarrassed me. Yeah, put my career in jeopardy.

I just feared for my career. I feared for my family. Just embarrassing, all of it. It's horrible and disgusting. No one should ever do that to anyone.

I just feared for my career. I feared for my family. Just embarrassing, all of it. It's horrible and disgusting. No one should ever do that to anyone.

That it could ruin everything that I worked for, just make me look like a slut. I would be shamed. And I wasn't supposed to be on those videos. I didn't want to be in them.

That it could ruin everything that I worked for, just make me look like a slut. I would be shamed. And I wasn't supposed to be on those videos. I didn't want to be in them.

It was just confusing. By that point, I was pretty messed up. I remember there being a time where I got just way too drunk to do anything and we had to leave. It's just uncomfortable when it's not something you're into. I'm not into seeing the person I'm in love with be with somebody else that's not my thing.

It was just confusing. By that point, I was pretty messed up. I remember there being a time where I got just way too drunk to do anything and we had to leave. It's just uncomfortable when it's not something you're into. I'm not into seeing the person I'm in love with be with somebody else that's not my thing.